Well I guess the nice thing about leaving my power cord to my ibook in another town is that I am forced to do something else besides cruise around the web all day. Who am I kidding, Cruise around SG all day.
So yes, and also yes.
I had a most eventful weekend. And am still recovering. I had a self imposed ban on ingesting mind altering substances but then an opportunity came up with this boy. And I could not refuse him. Why would I want to? He is probably the only person that I have ever just rolled alone with and felt so perfectly comfortable,yet highly charged emotionally and sexually. Because of so many extenuating circumstances it could never have worked out if we became a couple. And now I am glad that we never did bcse I am not couple material, I just didn't know it then. I was brainwashed by the media's idea of romance. But I was hell bent on being with him for a long long time, so much so I made myself sick with it. I finally worked through that part.
But now, it is evolving into its own continuum: I go see him, we have fun, we exchange cellular memory through skin contact and then I go home and go on about my business. I guess I 'll never get over him, but I have accepted the terms of this interaction.
I dreamt about him all night last night.
But it was good dreams. Not like the ones I had with my Coastie where I would wake up alone and crying. I woke up alone but I am OK with that. I could have crawled into someone else's bed but decided I needed to be by myself for a little while. Maybe tonight I will.
Oh yeah and I had sex with 2 different people in two different cities in one day!!! That's a first for me... I think. I am quite proud.
Time to go ride my bicycle!

So yes, and also yes.
I had a most eventful weekend. And am still recovering. I had a self imposed ban on ingesting mind altering substances but then an opportunity came up with this boy. And I could not refuse him. Why would I want to? He is probably the only person that I have ever just rolled alone with and felt so perfectly comfortable,yet highly charged emotionally and sexually. Because of so many extenuating circumstances it could never have worked out if we became a couple. And now I am glad that we never did bcse I am not couple material, I just didn't know it then. I was brainwashed by the media's idea of romance. But I was hell bent on being with him for a long long time, so much so I made myself sick with it. I finally worked through that part.
But now, it is evolving into its own continuum: I go see him, we have fun, we exchange cellular memory through skin contact and then I go home and go on about my business. I guess I 'll never get over him, but I have accepted the terms of this interaction.
I dreamt about him all night last night.
But it was good dreams. Not like the ones I had with my Coastie where I would wake up alone and crying. I woke up alone but I am OK with that. I could have crawled into someone else's bed but decided I needed to be by myself for a little while. Maybe tonight I will.

Oh yeah and I had sex with 2 different people in two different cities in one day!!! That's a first for me... I think. I am quite proud.
Time to go ride my bicycle!


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Also, It's good to hear somebody else goes through the same shit I've been dealing with -- well, not good that you have to go through it, but good to know that I'm not losing my mind.
And congrats on your two-for-two-in-one
2 differnt cities though=Damn girl. you lucky.
thanks for the love hun. Much appreciated. And yes i gave you a kiss good night. nothin too crazy just a peck on the lips, my general good bye kiss. maybe it'll be different on the playa