obsidity

This is my first entry.
I was going to try to be a suicidegirl at first. Then I decided it was not enough money. Then I decided it wasn't about money. Then I tried to figure out what it WAS about. Then I decided if I wasn't chosen, I would feel like such a piece of shit. I then felt that I had no real need to pose for the site.Then I thought I would sign up as a member so I could see what the other girls had done. And now I am posting in my journal. The girls are so cool and sexy and even if some aren't necessarily a turn on to me I am happy that they have an opportunity to show themselves off if that's what they want to do. Sometimes I still want to do that.
It's all rather confusing really.