I realized a few things tonight.
1. I actually like southpark. I watched some episode about baby cattle and it had cartman feeding the calves beef jerky. It was cute and made me crack up.
2. I saw 2 of the people I graduated highschool with after I got off work in a gas station. I realized I am still here and haven't done anything that I had rightly set out to do in the beginning of my plans. It is kind of a let down in some ways, not that I am dead so I always have the chance to make up for my lack of motivation and stupidity. It is just that whole I am turning 30 next month and it is like blah.
3. Why is it. And this is not whining just an observation really. It doesn't always happen, but I see it a lot and it really makes me question the idea of cosmic justice. Why is it that people who lie cheat and steal etc whatever for the majority of their life who suddenly have an epiphany or whatever and turn their life around trying to do good. Why is it that they succeed or find happiness, the good job, the good mate etc whatever while those who try to do the right thing either take forever to reach that or never do. As I said it doesn't apply to all cases it just seems to me it happens a lot and without any repercussions to the individuals that were doing wrong.
4. I think I am broken. I have real trust issues. People say things to me that remind me of former times and I get very paranoid. I know you are supposed to let the past go but I find that hard because people keep doing the same shit in the present that happened in the past. I don't really want to not trust someone but its hard some times.
5. I don't have anything else to add. I just wanted an odd number.
1. I actually like southpark. I watched some episode about baby cattle and it had cartman feeding the calves beef jerky. It was cute and made me crack up.
2. I saw 2 of the people I graduated highschool with after I got off work in a gas station. I realized I am still here and haven't done anything that I had rightly set out to do in the beginning of my plans. It is kind of a let down in some ways, not that I am dead so I always have the chance to make up for my lack of motivation and stupidity. It is just that whole I am turning 30 next month and it is like blah.
3. Why is it. And this is not whining just an observation really. It doesn't always happen, but I see it a lot and it really makes me question the idea of cosmic justice. Why is it that people who lie cheat and steal etc whatever for the majority of their life who suddenly have an epiphany or whatever and turn their life around trying to do good. Why is it that they succeed or find happiness, the good job, the good mate etc whatever while those who try to do the right thing either take forever to reach that or never do. As I said it doesn't apply to all cases it just seems to me it happens a lot and without any repercussions to the individuals that were doing wrong.
4. I think I am broken. I have real trust issues. People say things to me that remind me of former times and I get very paranoid. I know you are supposed to let the past go but I find that hard because people keep doing the same shit in the present that happened in the past. I don't really want to not trust someone but its hard some times.
5. I don't have anything else to add. I just wanted an odd number.
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What were some of your planes?
That does seem to happen a lot, maybe buy doing all that bad stuff they learned some tricks to get thing a little quicker!
Trust is important if youre really going to be friends with some one!
You should have came tonight, you will drive 5 hrs to hang out with the Ohio people and will not drive 1 hr and 30 min to hang out with the KY people, I guess we are not cool enough for you now LOL!
no you wont, the Ohio people will have somthing the same day and you will go to that, i know how you are LOL!