obliviousfocus

Where to begin. I don't really know. I went on a date tonight. I hadn't seen the girl till tonight. I had talked to her several times on the phone and just loved her personality and we got along marvelously. I was afraid it wouldn't go very much farther than that. I was oh so very very wrong.

I finally arrived at her house. I was early. I left early because there was a chance accidents could occur etc, and well I always like to give myself leeway time. So I call and I'm like I'm a little early so I'll just go explore till time so you can get ready. No go shes hungry so I go straight to her place.

Now you gotta understand. I don't get my hopes up on anything especially a blind date. So I was cool up until this point. Well when I met her at her door, that shit got stopped real quick. I was a bit stunned. She was a hell of a lot more beautiful than I had expected. I really didn't know what to say so I just kinda blushed. Her only reply was "wow your hot" which of course just made things worse.

We made it to the indian resturaunt and I had my lamb saag that i crave so much. We sat and chatted and talked back and forth over a multitude of tangents. I figured I would have to explain myself on subjects but I didn't have to so it was realllllllllllllllllllllllly odd. Normally I'm always explaining but this time I didn't have to. It was nice for once.

Our plan was to go to a toys for tots benefits show. Her exboyfriend was headlining in one of the bands playing. (yes i know weird set up but hey they are still close i'm not one to complain). Well she had like 60 friends there and I knew no one. So i just smiled and said go see your friends. She got a little worried that I would be upset we didn't spend much time together, but it was a first date and well I didn't want to act like a dick.

Any of my friends who have gone out with me to a bar know that I get hammered when I go out. Yes you people from Ohio have to put up with me in my drunken stupor. I only had 3 drinks and stopped. I wanted to remember my night for once. Some things ya just have to treasure. So I played the quiet date. Met a lot of her friends. Heard me being talked about and laughed. It was a good time.

The show was over and we were walking back to the car. I finally held her hand cause well I'm old fashioned like that. As we get to her car she up and kisses me. I felt my heart stop for about 3 seconds and my knees about buckled. I now know why poets lament when they try to describe things. There are just those moments in time where you don't have the words and to even just try to make words for it would destroy things. That was one of those moments. She said "I like you charlie-brown". I started stuttering. I haven't stuttered in over 6 years. I was blushing and just all red faced. It was sad. I was swooning at this point.

We had to go drop off film from the show so we stood in line and just chatted. She kissed me again and kept making me look her in the eyes. She kept laughing cause I was stuttering. I mean okay I was just okay yeah. She has one of those smiles that just lights up and has a glow that covers her face and her eyes are like a deep ocean you just wanna get lost in. I yeah. Exactly. I stutter just thinking about it.

I had to leave and come back home. It is rude and improper for a gentleman to stay at a ladies home on a first date. I will be going back next weekend though I hope. I dunno yet. It was just nice.

Driving home I could still smell her shampoo on my hands where I ran my fingers through it. I think I need mental help.