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Hrm what shall I rant about today for no reason ?
I have it I'll rant about the things I see going downhill.

Whatever happened to opening the door for a lady? Whatever happened to tipping your hat to a woman.? Whatever happened to not cussing in front of a woman?
See where I come from these were considered signs of respect. Now I do...
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Ennui has set in again. I think it happens around this time every year. It gets to me and drags me down. Lately i've been going over this whole fate and coincidence arguement.

Coincidence is how most people describe things that happen in their life that just seem tooooooo convenient. Then there are those that tend to think you are fated to have something happen...
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I hope you all have a happy Holiday regardless of what you believe or don't believe. Enjoy !!!

Thought I would put up another of my poems just to have it.

Angel wings snap like dried twigs.
Innocence is tossed like stale cigarettes.
Slip this fucking skin,
it oozes shadows and filth.

Tears of blood cannot even wash away the sins.
I sacrifice nothing for...
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I was seized by the christmas spirit and bought my mothers boyfriend something this year. I don't know why but it hit me while standing in a store.

Is everyone having a happy holiday this season ?

Disclaimer: Long and boring read haha cause i just so damn giddy.


This will will probably be the only positive journal I've written this year I think hahaha. I took my friend Dan out last night to get him used to my city and the bars etc since he moved here from Oklahoma. Dan dresses in punk/goth style and well where I work it is...
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You know maybe my last post was a bit negative. I dunno lately just having those whole what the fuck have I done with my life kind of ordeals. I seem to feel like I've compromised everything I believe in in order to survive. Its just fucking with my head.

My new resolution is to not be nice or considerate to others anymore. Why do you ask? Because every time I am this to people they take it for granted and treat me like shit, either that or they misinterpret my intentions towards them. With this in mind I'm going to just start being a hermit again and quit doing all the things i've done...
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I don't understand and you know what I really don't think it fucking matters if I understand or not.

I think I am going to quit doing journals and shit for a while. I got out of it what I wanted and well I think it is time to move on and do something new now. I think that this being my last entry for a while i'm going to have a little fun and do a break down of Spiderman 2 since I...
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Apparently I have a problem. I didn't realize this but apparently I listen to emo music a lot. Hell I didnt even know what emo was but apparently thats my favorite type of music. Oh well I guess I'll just have to enjoy it and go on with my life.

side note: now i'm pissed because i can't get this online payment system to work...
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Day 2 of no smoking and I am starting to feel a bit odd. I don't have any cravings, nor do i really miss it. This disturbs me because of the amount i was smoking i was pretty sure i was going to have some severe withdrawal but nadda, zi,p zilcho. oh well guess I should count my blessings.