obijonk

so i wanted to make an update, but what about? i dont right know...

ive felt somewhat excluded in some ways these past few days, not exactly sure how so and im probably being silly... but i just have.

i went out on tuesday night with a friend and ended up chatting to the pretty lady id liked for a while from my english course, turns out she is nice but a bit weird. speaking of my english course though, i went for a coffee (i had a coke cos i dont like coffee) with a girl from work who happens to be on my english course too and i like her a fair bit - trouble with this one is that she is gay, so i cant very tell her... dammit. we sat and talked about politics, our mutual love for red dwarf and other things, then we went to university and she saw some dreadful photos of me... hmm. see, according to lesbian etiquette, its ok for her to call me sweetie (which she did) and say she loves me for thinking voting is something we ought to do (which she also said) - i think we may have been making that up as we went along, but no matter... im sure i'll just have to get over this and over my feeling that some people would rather not be talking to me but feel they have to or something.

the music now is wistful cave in....
the mood is... wow, i just talked loads of bollocks

Jon x