Aww I'm sorry you've had a difficult time.

And thank you, you're a sweetheart.
xox

depression is my middle name! well...not really. but i do know how it is. try not to get bogged down, and always believe there's hope out there!

*should be an inspirational speaker*

i am sorry about your grandma passing on..

it wouldn't load at all...i waited and waited and waited...

and i know how you feel about that void inside after someone you love dies. my friend ian died of a heroin overdose. we were like brother and sister, hung out every day, went on vacations together...and when he died, i found myself shocked, then lulled into a kind of nothingness. i kissed his forehead at the viewing like it was a stranger, or a doll. and at the funeral when everyone was crying, i sat there unmoved. i realized it was shock...and disbelief. a person carries that with them no matter what they tell themselves or believe. i am so sorry this happened to you. don't try to cry if you can't. just remember.

i agree about how the media makes michael jackson out to be some creepy bad guy. the living with michael jackson special was completely unfair to him in the sense that the interviewer presented questions in a way that would make michael look like a freak after the editors got in there and cut out certain scenes and warped it into what they wanted it to be. but he still is a strange guy, regardless of what the media has to say or doesn't have to say about it. the plastic surgery, the peter pain fantasy, etc. he's not a bad guy, and i think what he's done as far as support for children goes is amazing, but you have to admit that some of those things he says do bring on a bit of suspicion. i doubt anyone will ever know if what happened between him and that boy is true, but the idea in itself is still creepy to parents and kids everywhere.
ah well this is getting longer than i expected it to be.

hah i could imagine drinking loses its novelty once you hit 22 or so. half of the thrill is usually the fact that you're not allowed to be doing it when you're underage, etc. i will enjoy the fact that i will be able to walk into a bar and order away, but half the thrill will be gone. ah well.

good rant. *coughs* and...nyquil=

i sleep all crazy as well. i go to bed at a reasonable time but get up at 3 am watch tv and then go back to bed till 9. i did a long distance relationship once and hated it so i understand what you mean.

don't go out driving. and keep your car snow free...get a broom or something. delaware and maryland are in state of emergency, and it's a motherfucking BITCH to try to dig your car out of a 4 foot drift whilst freezing your BOOTAY off. stay warm, and stay in.

Yeah, Audrey Tautou is adorable
I'll have to check that movie out! I'm a big fan of the French films, I used to watche everything I could get my hands on when I was in high school. Now they seem to be focusing quite a bit on the more out-there stories and beautiful visuals, which I really enjoy. They have some really great comedies as well. ("Mama, There's a Man in My Bed'", "La Cage aux Folles", "Barjo", etc.) I just bought "Jean de Florette" the other day, which is depressing as all hell but very interesting, and it has the distinction of being one of the few films with Gerard Depardieu that I can stomach.

I know what you mean... I couldn't help but catch myself smiling during that movie too.

And thanks.

That's such a fantastic movie.. one of my favourites... Audrey Tautou is SO incredibly gorgeous too. *le sigh*

Hope you find something nice for your girlfriends birthday. :]

Actually, everything by that director that I've seen is awesome! As the artiste, I think you'll especially appreciate it. Such beatiful colors...
Actually your plan was what I'd intended to do, oh so many years ago. Obviously yours is on a much better track as you're within sight of graduation.

i jimmy kimmel. and sorry to hear about your gf...siggo's suck ass. i LOVE being single with all my heart and soul...even though it sucks on valentine's day. which it's not anymore...so WOOHOO!

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That sounds rather depressing! It's been a very long time since I had the joy of a long-distance relationship which was, fortunately, a very short-term condition. He had to stay there over my birthday and that was far and away the worst birthday of my life. Yuck.

I talked about going to the art school un Portland for graduate school, but I think that requires that you first graduate! That sounds like a lot of fun. What are you going to do with your degree when you get that far?

congrats on grad school in SF..

Where will you be going to school there?

pass the dutchie