At home on spring break. things aren't going too bad. Been sleeping in a little. Don't have any work to do so it's nice. although i do have some video to shoot for a project but I want to do that so it won't be that bad. Going to get some cavities filled tomorrow. Yah! I HATE THE DENTIST 
probably going for a tatoo later...
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Leaving for spring break today. Home to good old Massachusetts. Hopefully will be going to the SGBoston get together next weekend 3/15.
Going to see Linkin Park on tuesday.
Will be filming my video project while at home, and will be returning with no hair
I hope everyone has a good week, i will try and check on here a few times over the next...
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Going to see Linkin Park on tuesday.
Will be filming my video project while at home, and will be returning with no hair
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26oo:
have a good week d00d, let's see a pic when you get back.
megean:
good luck with your movie!
So I have decided that I am going to shave my head for a piece in one of my videos. The video is going to be about my mother and how i have been dealing with her loss and what i learned from her. Now when my mother was going through chemotherapy, she had to have her head shaven before she began to loose all...
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chlamydia:
Yeah..it does suck. Oh well...back with the 'rents. I guess thats cheaper anyway..
euterpe:
Thanks for the birthday wishes babe!!! 
It does get old quick... 21 is no different to any other birthday I've had. *yawn*
xo
It does get old quick... 21 is no different to any other birthday I've had. *yawn*
xo
had a great night last night. finally got myself out of the house after giving myself too much time of grieving, went out to a friends party, then left the party around 12 to go see a great local band play they got done around 2, went back to the party for a while then took a 4am trip to dennys cause we were starving...
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ophelia:
sorry I didn't get back to the comment that you left until now. It's been a crazy couple of days.
Thank you muchly for the copy of "know your chicken". I was looking for the video, but I didn't have a good version of the song anyway, so I downloaded it.
Thank you muchly for the copy of "know your chicken". I was looking for the video, but I didn't have a good version of the song anyway, so I downloaded it.
megean:
i figure the golden rule applies to friends. but she would've been happy even if i gave her a rock with a leash on it for her birthday. i just felt the need to spend massive sums on her. meh.
Slowly feeling better and better as the days go by, thanks all for the support.
Also starting to feel like i don't want to do the long distance thing anymore. I mean yeah it is fine when i get home, but it is still new and when i am at school i don't want my mind to be there all the time. And then i'll...
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Also starting to feel like i don't want to do the long distance thing anymore. I mean yeah it is fine when i get home, but it is still new and when i am at school i don't want my mind to be there all the time. And then i'll...
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megean:
sometimes i wonder if she lies to me just in hopes that i'll never find out. oh well...i'll find out soom anyway.
euterpe:
Well exactly.
Otherwise I would have had to kill you. :p
Otherwise I would have had to kill you. :p
Thanks to anyone who has been reading my journal and leaving kind words. It is true depression will pass.
I just got in. Was a busy night. First i went to see Old School before i did any work. Very Amusing.
after the movie I went out to take some pictures for my digital photo class. we have to do a cinematic print, that is...
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I just got in. Was a busy night. First i went to see Old School before i did any work. Very Amusing.
after the movie I went out to take some pictures for my digital photo class. we have to do a cinematic print, that is...
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megean:
no more job hunting, i got it!!! woot! and speaking of starving, i am. time to go raid the fridge. mwah.
cherry:
I'll email you shortly about the reading 
:cherry:
:cherry:
Just got back tonight from home. What a long weekend. These past years it has just been too much to handle, so much going on in my life. Losing family members is not fun.
Anyways I don't want to make another depressing post, Thanks to all of you who sent me messages of support I apreciate it.
Anyways I don't want to make another depressing post, Thanks to all of you who sent me messages of support I apreciate it.
euterpe:
Aww I'm sorry you've had a difficult time. 
And thank you, you're a sweetheart.
xox
And thank you, you're a sweetheart.
xox
megean:
depression is my middle name! well...not really. but i do know how it is. try not to get bogged down, and always believe there's hope out there!
*should be an inspirational speaker*
*should be an inspirational speaker*
Not a good day. I just found out that my grandmother passed away this morning. just not a good day, i don't even know how to handle this. I have been so emotionally tuned out and exhausted since my mother passed away that i don't even know how to feel, and i feel so awful that i haven't been able to shed a tear yet,...
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desilou:
i am sorry about your grandma passing on..
megean:
it wouldn't load at all...i waited and waited and waited...
and i know how you feel about that void inside after someone you love dies. my friend ian died of a heroin overdose. we were like brother and sister, hung out every day, went on vacations together...and when he died, i found myself shocked, then lulled into a kind of nothingness. i kissed his forehead at the viewing like it was a stranger, or a doll. and at the funeral when everyone was crying, i sat there unmoved. i realized it was shock...and disbelief. a person carries that with them no matter what they tell themselves or believe. i am so sorry this happened to you. don't try to cry if you can't. just remember.
and i know how you feel about that void inside after someone you love dies. my friend ian died of a heroin overdose. we were like brother and sister, hung out every day, went on vacations together...and when he died, i found myself shocked, then lulled into a kind of nothingness. i kissed his forehead at the viewing like it was a stranger, or a doll. and at the funeral when everyone was crying, i sat there unmoved. i realized it was shock...and disbelief. a person carries that with them no matter what they tell themselves or believe. i am so sorry this happened to you. don't try to cry if you can't. just remember.
Ok I am going on a rant here. I just finished watching the Michael Jackson special for the second time. Did you even watch it or were you one of those people like the media, or the ones who just watched the news clips(editing out anything that michael jackson said). --- sorry that part was to a post on the message board, but i wanted...
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alexisnicole:
i agree about how the media makes michael jackson out to be some creepy bad guy. the living with michael jackson special was completely unfair to him in the sense that the interviewer presented questions in a way that would make michael look like a freak after the editors got in there and cut out certain scenes and warped it into what they wanted it to be. but he still is a strange guy, regardless of what the media has to say or doesn't have to say about it. the plastic surgery, the peter pain fantasy, etc. he's not a bad guy, and i think what he's done as far as support for children goes is amazing, but you have to admit that some of those things he says do bring on a bit of suspicion. i doubt anyone will ever know if what happened between him and that boy is true, but the idea in itself is still creepy to parents and kids everywhere.
ah well this is getting longer than i expected it to be.
hah i could imagine drinking loses its novelty once you hit 22 or so. half of the thrill is usually the fact that you're not allowed to be doing it when you're underage, etc. i will enjoy the fact that i will be able to walk into a bar and order away, but half the thrill will be gone. ah well.
ah well this is getting longer than i expected it to be.
hah i could imagine drinking loses its novelty once you hit 22 or so. half of the thrill is usually the fact that you're not allowed to be doing it when you're underage, etc. i will enjoy the fact that i will be able to walk into a bar and order away, but half the thrill will be gone. ah well.
megean:
good rant. *coughs* and...nyquil=
Well lets see. Woke up today about 3pm. Not to bad since Saturday i slept until almost 5. I gotta stop staying up so late, it ruins me when the week comes. I talked to my girl for a little while. Long distance relationships SUCK!!!!!!!!
I just go back from working in the computer lab all night. I think i just finished one of the...
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desilou:
i sleep all crazy as well. i go to bed at a reasonable time but get up at 3 am watch tv and then go back to bed till 9. i did a long distance relationship once and hated it so i understand what you mean.
megean:
don't go out driving. and keep your car snow free...get a broom or something. delaware and maryland are in state of emergency, and it's a motherfucking BITCH to try to dig your car out of a 4 foot drift whilst freezing your BOOTAY off. stay warm, and stay in.
It is about 7am. just finished watching Amelie. I have to admit i really enjoyed it. call me less of a man if you wish, but it was a beautiful film. It was shot beautifully and at times i kept forgetting to read the subtitles i was getting pulled into the imagery so much. Thank you to everyone i saw mentioning this film this weekend...
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alyssum:
Yeah, Audrey Tautou is adorable
I'll have to check that movie out! I'm a big fan of the French films, I used to watche everything I could get my hands on when I was in high school. Now they seem to be focusing quite a bit on the more out-there stories and beautiful visuals, which I really enjoy. They have some really great comedies as well. ("Mama, There's a Man in My Bed'", "La Cage aux Folles", "Barjo", etc.) I just bought "Jean de Florette" the other day, which is depressing as all hell but very interesting, and it has the distinction of being one of the few films with Gerard Depardieu that I can stomach.
I'll have to check that movie out! I'm a big fan of the French films, I used to watche everything I could get my hands on when I was in high school. Now they seem to be focusing quite a bit on the more out-there stories and beautiful visuals, which I really enjoy. They have some really great comedies as well. ("Mama, There's a Man in My Bed'", "La Cage aux Folles", "Barjo", etc.) I just bought "Jean de Florette" the other day, which is depressing as all hell but very interesting, and it has the distinction of being one of the few films with Gerard Depardieu that I can stomach.
euterpe:
I know what you mean... I couldn't help but catch myself smiling during that movie too.
And thanks.
And thanks.
I have been seeing a lot of people saying that they watched Amelie this weekend. I have yet to check it out. However I am downloading it on my computer because everyone seems to like it and I have heard a lot of talk about it before so i am finally going to check it out. There is only about a half hour left on...
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euterpe:
That's such a fantastic movie.. one of my favourites... Audrey Tautou is SO incredibly gorgeous too. *le sigh*
Hope you find something nice for your girlfriends birthday. :]
Hope you find something nice for your girlfriends birthday. :]
alyssum:
Actually, everything by that director that I've seen is awesome! As the artiste, I think you'll especially appreciate it. Such beatiful colors...
Actually your plan was what I'd intended to do, oh so many years ago. Obviously yours is on a much better track as you're within sight of graduation.
Actually your plan was what I'd intended to do, oh so many years ago. Obviously yours is on a much better track as you're within sight of graduation.
I hope the dentist wasn't too horrible. Yuck I hate going too!