Right so...I'm terribly unprepared to go back to school. As much as I want to leave, to stop having to work EVERY damn day, I'm exhausted. Tomorrow is my last day of work and then I have Wednesday through Friday to pack and get prepared for the great migration back north. My parents and I are caravaning on Saturday, me with most of the "things"...
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shayne:
thanks for leaving me such a sweet message on my set. Your profile pic is phenomenal. hope you're having fun. 
roxy:
I went to Stafford Senior High School, ah memories. As for things to do there... there really isn't much. Mostly what I did was hang out with friends in parking lots or people's houses. I was an angry and angst filled teenager, so I didn't really go out much.
Another full day of being completely confused by Ryan. I had a really long talk with Elvis today. Apparently it was a few weeks ago when she told Ryan that she didn't see it working out anymore, but they were still kinda together for a while...and the Colin thing brought it to a full stop.
So he and I played around like we used to,...
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So he and I played around like we used to,...
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u_dont_know_me:
Well, you could also think of it this way ...you're getting ready to go back to school ... maybe if nothing works out with this guy, you'll find another one that things will go somewhere with ... though I've seen the pickin's around town and I must say that this is a very liberal assumption hanging on lots of luck and a sudden peek in the hetero community and a subsequent decline of the frat-boy wannabes ... unless you're really in to frazzled pot-heads ... then your good ... oh wait ... nevermind ... stay home. 
cambria:
thank you! 
Today brought...a whole lot of nothing. And I mean a WHOLE lot. I'm just exhausted and I feel like crap. I called out sick from work even though I wasn't REALLLLLY that sick, I just decided that since I hadn't called out even ONCE during the course of the summer (I even came in a number of times on my day off) that I deserved...
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u_dont_know_me:
You know ... you can get all of that stuff cheap at second-hand electronic stores ... just go to GameStop ... they're everywhere ... or EB Games in the mall. Cheap, quick, simple ...
By the way ...
What's your favorite game?
By the way ...
What's your favorite game?
txakurgorri:
Ah, yes, the Playstation One. How I wasted so many Saturday nights playing Madden 97 with my friends. God, I am such a geek... 
Life does have those days, don't it?
Life does have those days, don't it?
Only six more shifts. And I might call off tomorrow. My stomach is killing me tonight. I felt like I was going to die all night. Tomorrow is only going to be eight thousand times worse.
I really want something to happen with Ryan. I'm trying to steer myself in that direction. I know probably nothing will happen until at least Saturday...seeing as how I...
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I really want something to happen with Ryan. I'm trying to steer myself in that direction. I know probably nothing will happen until at least Saturday...seeing as how I...
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chainedcresent:
I read your article.
I went through a very similair thing (at several jobs). I leave. I always end up leaving. It might not be the best advice, but I was making good money at one of the jobs, but being demeend like that... It wasnt worth the paycheck. It got to the point that it was putting me in a bad mood when I got home, and my friends (who are wonderful) didnt deserve to have to put up with a grumpy me just cause someone else was making me feel like shit.
She was even preventing me from getting the jobs I wanted (and felt like I deserved).
I went through a very similair thing (at several jobs). I leave. I always end up leaving. It might not be the best advice, but I was making good money at one of the jobs, but being demeend like that... It wasnt worth the paycheck. It got to the point that it was putting me in a bad mood when I got home, and my friends (who are wonderful) didnt deserve to have to put up with a grumpy me just cause someone else was making me feel like shit.
She was even preventing me from getting the jobs I wanted (and felt like I deserved).
txakurgorri:
Have fun and make sure no one takes any incriminating pictures... 
Argh. So the one I shouldn't be thinking about is making it very difficult not to think about him. I feel like I'm back in some high school drama which, though oddly comforting, I'm really getting sick of.
So here's the story as of right this second. He and The King (Elvis, no really, that's her name) broke up on Saturday because - get this...
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So here's the story as of right this second. He and The King (Elvis, no really, that's her name) broke up on Saturday because - get this...
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u_dont_know_me:
I know where you are coming from darling ... it's tough getting over someone, or avoiding someone, or whatever, when they are constantly there all the time (whether that is physically or just in your head).
All you can really do is set a goal for yourself (together, not together, something happens, something doesn't, etc.) and stick with it.
As long as whatever happens is on your terms in a way that you are comfortable, what is there to worry or complain about? Decide what you want and make it happen ... and even if it doesn't work out that way, at least you tried ...
... I'm sorry, I'm rambling ...
All you can really do is set a goal for yourself (together, not together, something happens, something doesn't, etc.) and stick with it.
As long as whatever happens is on your terms in a way that you are comfortable, what is there to worry or complain about? Decide what you want and make it happen ... and even if it doesn't work out that way, at least you tried ...
... I'm sorry, I'm rambling ...
geekwithaguitar:
yeah dude, friday night sounds fine. i don't care if you bring friends as long as thier hot, single girls
I'm back to thinking about the one that I shouldn't be thinking about. That is the one that is too young, the one who loves The King, the one that won't just get out of my head. I thought this whole thing was over, I thought I could easily move on, get over him, see what I have in front of me and go with...
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txakurgorri:
Life is drama. No matter what you do, those little memories and what-if's always creep in and just mind fuck you to death.
I always thought that I had all the answers at seven and there is nothing anyone can say to tell me otherwise!
I always thought that I had all the answers at seven and there is nothing anyone can say to tell me otherwise!
jayde__:
Love and drama... sigh... I won't get started on either since my monthly friend is visiting and I'm overemotional and whiney right now. But yeah...
Anyway, I hope you are feeling better now... or at least soon. *hugs*
Anyway, I hope you are feeling better now... or at least soon. *hugs*
So now I'm back...you know the rest.
The beach was...well, the beach. It was awesome because I love the ocean and the water. It was awesome because I didn't have to work for seven days. It was awesome because my mom bought me cool stuff. HOWEVER. I felt like I was 16 again. When I'm with my whole family, I can't do anything without being...
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The beach was...well, the beach. It was awesome because I love the ocean and the water. It was awesome because I didn't have to work for seven days. It was awesome because my mom bought me cool stuff. HOWEVER. I felt like I was 16 again. When I'm with my whole family, I can't do anything without being...
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cambria:
do you still want to work at Calypso at the end of summer? I told my boss that someone wants to help out later on after I leave.
geekwithaguitar:
i called you!!
I hate being home alone. It sucks. And of course I had to watch Law and Order and it was all about a woman being raped (of course) and she was home alone...suddenly the house seems both too big and too small at the same time. I wish there was someplace I could escape to so I don't have to face this all alone. But...
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tortor:
I so understand, hon,! I'm terrified of being alone. Ever since I was 6 or 7 and used to watch Rescue 911, I've been terrified of someone coming into my house. I'm sending big hugs your way!
disconnected:
woo!
Okay, so I'll give you three guesses as to who was supposed to come into my bar last night.
Nope, not him. Nope, not her. YES! COLIN FUCKING FARRELL!!!
Now, I'll give you three more guesses to tell me who didn't show up. That's right. Colin-fucking-Farrell. One of the crew or cast or someone stopped by last night to tell us that they were gonna...
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Nope, not him. Nope, not her. YES! COLIN FUCKING FARRELL!!!
Now, I'll give you three more guesses to tell me who didn't show up. That's right. Colin-fucking-Farrell. One of the crew or cast or someone stopped by last night to tell us that they were gonna...
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rybo:
lame. it will come back around.
rybo:
lame that you missed him. i bet someone famous will randomly come in now. its just kind of how things work.
I'm stalling. I should be getting ready for work. But instead...I'm stalling. Why do I torture myself at that place of horrific misery? Why?
Only a few more weeks. I know I can make it. Three more days this week...then a whole week off at the beach. And only two more weeks after that. Probably eight shifts. Maybe ten. Who knows.
I don't want to...
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Only a few more weeks. I know I can make it. Three more days this week...then a whole week off at the beach. And only two more weeks after that. Probably eight shifts. Maybe ten. Who knows.
I don't want to...
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shadowmancer:
Oooohhhhh.....the rare-but-not-unknown 'Normal-Freaky'.
You ma'am are a true treasure.
You ma'am are a true treasure.
txakurgorri:
Aah, yes, work...
I am happy that I have Wed. thru Fri. off this week but in the back of my mind I keeping of the real reason behind this mini-vacation... Next week my manager is out, so I have to cover for him, that and the fact that we incredibly short-staffed. So, just me and the kid whose being there less than two months...
Fun times, fun times.
My advice, just daydream a lot about the beach.... hmm... beach.....
I am happy that I have Wed. thru Fri. off this week but in the back of my mind I keeping of the real reason behind this mini-vacation... Next week my manager is out, so I have to cover for him, that and the fact that we incredibly short-staffed. So, just me and the kid whose being there less than two months...
Fun times, fun times.
My advice, just daydream a lot about the beach.... hmm... beach.....