nyghtwish

So I'm probably an idiot and irresponsible, but I'm going up to NoVA to meet this new guy. When I talk to him tonight, I'm gonna make sure we meet at a public place. I'm pretty sure he'd rather just meet me at his place, but I hear that's sketchy. (Not his place, meeting someone from online at their home.) So I dunno. Despite meeting him in a public place, if we happen to be alone at any point, he could rape me then too.

I'm leaving my roommates his address and directions. Minda is getting my cat if I die. They are instructed to start thinking about calling the cops if I'm not home when they get home from work on Wednesday night and haven't contacted them.

So aside from my hideous paranoia, I'm actually really excited. I hope he doesn't turn out to be a lame ass who lives in his parents' basement and plays online games all day. I'd cry.

It's been a long long time since I've been on a first date. Honestly, I've had a bunch of boyfriends but only three guys I truly "dated" (as in went out someplace not just to make out in his mom's car.) So this is all kinds of new for me. I don't usually spaz out about hair and clothes and shoes and such...though I have to admit, I do get awful excited about shoes sometimes...but I've spent the last three days trying to figure out what the fuck I'm going to wear, how to make my hair behave, which shoes would be the most appropriate for any kind of event...that sort of thing. It's driving me crazy. He doesn't want to make specific plans, aside from the time. He says we'll figure it out. That doesn't help me! I don't want to be too dressed or underdressed, you know? Fuck that...