nyghtwish

Okay I just wrote up this long entry about why I'm so upset with everyone in my life right now. But that's really not fair. Yeah, things have been pretty shitty this fall. My father is sick, my boyfriend and I broke up, and all my friends are leaving. But this means I don't have to be tied down to anything. My family will still be there for me, no matter where I head off to. But now it's not a matter of waiting around for my boyfriend to graduate so we can get married. It's not about being at home so that I can see my friends. I'll see them when I see them, if it's meant to be. And if it's not, I'll always have the memories.

I've started looking at publishing internships, but it's slow going. About the only city I'd be interested in living in is Boston because I actually know people there. I'm contemplating Seattle just because my dad was offered a job there years ago and turned it down to move to Virginia. I've always wondered what my life would have been like if I had ended up there. Plus, I could move out there with my friend and things would be peachy.

I've also, though, told my roommate that I might stay in town to make some money before I make my big trek out into the real world. For some reason I think it might be safer for me not to quite leave the reach of my parents just yet. To figure out adult life where I can still run home and cry if I need to. So I dunno. I like making plans for my future thinking only of myself. I haven't done that since I was in high school...