I am mother fucking popular today. Hooray for two new friends.
So...last night was insane. Very bad. Very good. I got in an argument with the boy that lasted almost an hour. There was screaming, there were tears, there were threats. It was pretty fucking intense. Basically it was him telling me that I expect too much and me telling him that I feel like I'm cheating on him if I spend time with another guy even though he's not my boyfriend anymore.
The reason this is so important right now is that I'm on the verge of deciding what to do for the rest of my life. Just about the only reason I would choose to stay here is for him. If we're not together, I'll probably move. What happens when I decided to move away, but we decide to carry on? I love this boy. But I'm not strong enough to have another three year long distance relationship. It sucks. And this time around, I probably wouldn't live only an hour and a half away. I'm looking into moving AWAY. But then, I don't know. I want to get away from my life here. It's been steadily going downhill for the last two years. Before long, I'll become lost in the void that is Fredericksburg and be stuck here for life. It happens. A LOT. I'm not one of those people that gets stuck. There is so much more for me...
I think we hashed it out. We're going to move on with our separate lives for now. He wants to be "friends" but I don't honestly know that it'll work. I mean, he says he loves me...so how is he going to be my "friend" if I'm dating someone else? Trust me, he's not THAT understanding.
Today, I hate boys. Just for today. I need angry girl alone time.
So...last night was insane. Very bad. Very good. I got in an argument with the boy that lasted almost an hour. There was screaming, there were tears, there were threats. It was pretty fucking intense. Basically it was him telling me that I expect too much and me telling him that I feel like I'm cheating on him if I spend time with another guy even though he's not my boyfriend anymore.
The reason this is so important right now is that I'm on the verge of deciding what to do for the rest of my life. Just about the only reason I would choose to stay here is for him. If we're not together, I'll probably move. What happens when I decided to move away, but we decide to carry on? I love this boy. But I'm not strong enough to have another three year long distance relationship. It sucks. And this time around, I probably wouldn't live only an hour and a half away. I'm looking into moving AWAY. But then, I don't know. I want to get away from my life here. It's been steadily going downhill for the last two years. Before long, I'll become lost in the void that is Fredericksburg and be stuck here for life. It happens. A LOT. I'm not one of those people that gets stuck. There is so much more for me...
I think we hashed it out. We're going to move on with our separate lives for now. He wants to be "friends" but I don't honestly know that it'll work. I mean, he says he loves me...so how is he going to be my "friend" if I'm dating someone else? Trust me, he's not THAT understanding.
Today, I hate boys. Just for today. I need angry girl alone time.
Oh and YA, Hey thanks so much for the nice stuff you said about my set
I have a believe system about times like yours. I view myself as a leaf, and the norns (fate) as the wind, and trust it to blow me where I need to be. Just have faith things will turn out for the best and in fate, most likely they will.
About the hook thing and beer. Think like a pirate and do the pirate thing. Stab the keg and place yourself under the river of gold. Then you can drink untill your hearts content and you look total bad ass, and no one will mess with you unless they want to lose a liver or an eye.