nyghtwish

WOOOO. It was my last day. Of course, last call HAD to be at 11:30, which is a pretty late night for us. That means we don't leave until after midnight.

I will actually be sad to leave that place. It practically became my second home for most of the summer. Even when I wasn't working, I was up there more often then not, hanging out, smoking, drinking, causing problems. Don't get me wrong, I'm more than thrilled to leave certain people behind. It's given me a WHOLE lot of reasons to stay in school and not remain in the food industry for the rest of my life. But whatever, fuck it. I'm done for now.

I'm really torn about what to do with my life. I think I've decided to stick around school and get a teaching certification...but I don't know if I want to do elementary or high school. On the one hand, I'd love to teach theatre or english at some sort of arts academy. But those positions are HARD to get. I'd rather not waste my time teaching english to a bunch of ninth grade future dropouts. I have always been interested in gifted education and I think doing theatre or english in that area would be fantastic.

At the same time, I love small children. I would have SUCH a fabulous time teaching third grade or something. Probably not fifth grade because they're all knowit all assholes. And probably not first grade because I'm not so good with the HUGE amount of patience you need for the very young ones. But eight year olds are cute and innocent, becoming independent but still just babies. I dunno.

I'm jealous of people who grow up knowing what they wanted to do. I mean, sure I grew up wanting to be a movie star, but that's pretty damn far from ever becoming a possibility. I mean, when you're competing with Lindsay Lohan...

But why worry, right? I've got a whole year ahead of me that's already planned out. I've just got to get some fabulous grades this semester to really boost that GPA. I hate that shit. I used to be smart.