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Tuesday Jun 15, 2004

Jun 15, 2004
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Well, I haven't been around Ryan enough to attempt a TOS agreement. I hate boys. This was just supposed to be fun. How can I have fun when he makes me feel like crap sometimes?

I dunno, in the end, that he'll truly be worth my while. I had a long talk with one of my best friends, about soul mates and relationships. Soul mates not in terms of love, but in terms of friendship. I think when you meet someone, you can tell whether or not you're supposed to mean anything to each other. And I KNOW I feel something deeper than physical attraction for Ryan. I think the timing might be wrong is all...

Like, I was saying, though, long talk with my bestest. This was the first talk with him in almost 3 years that I didn't walk away a) in tears, b) in love, or c) completely wasted. We've both matured so much and I can honestly say that I'm not in love with him anymore. I still think he's about the hottest thing I've ever seen, but I'm not in love. It's a good place to be.

I might see Ryan before work today. Perhaps I'll get the chance to talk to him then...



*edit*: New pics added today!
jcup:
Unfortunately timing is everything, or maybe fortunately cuz now that Im older I see that if things didnt happen in a certain order than I wouldnt have learned the lessons I did and I would have probably missed out on alot if things had gone well at that time. So...I guess it works out in the end. I have completely been in your same situation with the friend thing. I was all about my best friend for years. We were in love but we never became boyfriend girlfriend. We'd be physical whenever we werent with someone and she was the only girl my mom loved and wanted me to marry. There were times that she told me that she wanted to marry me. Shit just didnt work out that way. Anyways...I felt so releaved after not being in love with her, cuz wanting something that cant be fucks up your relationship with others and hurts like a MFer ya know? I hope your talk with ol boy goes well. Keep me updated. wink
Jun 15, 2004
biga:
311 love song. nice

[Edited on Jun 15, 2004 11:15PM]
Jun 15, 2004

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