nvr_die

Well.. I'm puttin myself back in the game. I'm out there once again with my heart on my chest. And i'm man enough to say.. I'm fuckin scared shitless. Last time it was shattered in to a million tiny pieces. Then as I started to put it back together it was smashed again. She was the one above all others. I never believed, she changed all that. I handed her my heart she looked me in the eyes as she dropped it then walked away.
I've put it back together once again and it seems like I bounce back and forth between "i'm ready, i'm not ready". Which makes me think well if i'm not sure then i'm not ready. But when I step back and look I see fear tied around me holding me back. Self inflected to protect myself. I cant hide anymore so i'm back out there and I've met someone. It was one of those times when your friends know your single and they all have the perfect person for you. Normally i'm not in to that its just not my thing. But this time I knew I needed to break away from my norm and my saftynet and figured what the fuck. If worst comes to worst at least I met someone cool.
I'm normally the what doesn't kill me makes me stronger type of guy. And life teaches us. Everything we go through bad and good teaches us what we need to see. And I know all this shit ive been through is all of that and more. Lessons upon lessons. But dam it if it doesn't remind me of my scars.
Ive never been gunshy with love. I see the gun.. I know the shot will soon follow.. i'm trying so hard not to flinch.

This chick seems pretty cool i'm diggin her quite a bit. I'm hoping it goes somewhere. Just be gentle please be gentle..