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No one around--online or in real life. So bored. So alone. Too alone. Too quiet. Too much energy. Feel especially unloved. Wondering if I finally did something wrong. Bouncing off walls. Mind too fast. Attention span too short. This must be how hummingbirds feel. Trying to write and draw and design website all at the same time. Mind racing. Can't get enough stimulation. Thinking alternately in English, Japanese, and English. Wait, there were some French words. Mustn't look at numbers--will start doing math tricks with them. Why doesn't anyone answer their phone? They're call-screening. I know it. Is my intuition trustable? Am I just agitating myself to have something to do? Stream of consciousness is interesting.