nuit

It's 30 minutes after midnight and I just got home from work. My room mate picked up some grapefruits when he went shopping the other day and I'm quite content to be eating one now. I'm thinking how interesting it is how easy to ignore my body. like not my physical appearance but more the what's going on inside. My serving shoulder is always aching, and I sometimes the only time I'm aware of it is when it's wound so tight it hurts my head. That I'm hungry because I've been running around at work and I notice because my brain stops processing properly.
Now I'm thinking my life doesn't have much of a balance too it. Which is mostly true working long nights coming home and crashing only to do it the next day and not wanting to anything on my days off but curl up and read. I guess it's more of a self realization more than anything else, it's not like I'm planning to do anything about it at the moment.
I really do like grapefruits. I don't think I have ever mentioned this before. I like em better than oranges. I couldn't tell you when this began...but I think it might have been when I was still a drama student and the singing teacher mentioned is was a good way to quench your throat of thirst.
It's really interesting for me to remember those days when I was a drama student. All the drama students, the artists, and the musicians all in one part of the building. The college I attended was and still very much is trade oriented, and then you had us. My life was filled with classes that don't transfer to anything, and rehearsals for plays, and so much randomness. That year and a half really feels like a different life entirely. Not in a wistful kinda way either, more of how you remember yourself as a really young kid.
I want to get another tattoo. I want the colouring and the picture to be like stained glass, I'm not sure what I want the image to be. Maybe a snowflake.
My grapefruit is done, and it was delicious. I think that's enough rambling thought for tonight