nparis

Well it's been a couple days since my last post, I wish that meant I have a lot to say, but unfortunately just more venting. Work has been crazy, got switched over to special projects on Thursday and it is a living nightmare. Nothing works the way it's supposed to and I'm in charge of making things right, it's a great opportunity for me to impress the bosses but I don't know if it's worth the added stress. I was fairly certain that physics was broken with this one project today, ive "fixed" the issues but I still dont understand fully what was going wrong. On the plus side I have been getting 3-4 hours of sleep a night finally. I feel like a whole different person now that I've gotten a little bit of rest. I've definitely been thinking a lot more clearly. Not to pleased to say that a lot of that thinking was focused around my ex, haha I'm hopeless. It just feels like I have this void in my life now that she used to fill, it doesn't seem to matter how good things are I'm carrying around my own personal rain cloud. I'm such a delight I know (rolls eyes). I just can't seem to get over her.
With my mind feeling sharper now I've been writing a lot of little verses, nothing I have been able to piece together into a song, but really capturing some emotions into great lyrics, can't wait to have some down time that I can use towards that side project of mine. That about sums up the past couple days, still debating whether or not I'm happy with my life right now, I know I need to make some changes, just not sure where.