0
You know it's going to be nice when the world takes on a yellowish-amber hue. Your red hair hangs straight as a lightpost and your lips make a nice little O.
It's impossible to tell you, because you can't describe color to a blind person, or touch to someone who can't feel. It's something that can be understood, but not fully.
So we walk down...
Read More
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
amok01:
makeshift patriot is the shit although i always thought it was about the complete stupidity of the government and media concerning this whole "war on terrorism" thing and 9/11. every time i hear that line "racial profiling will continue with less bitching", no matter what mood i'm in i laugh a sick laugh cause the world really is that fucked up right now.
i love the part where the newscaster cuts in and says "how's my hair look?" like that's all he's concerned about during all that death and destruction.
hey what you said about my journal entry is true. i think it is the taoist in me wanting to get back to the natural. the urge feels primal and raw and like i said, ancient. it's strong, that urge to abandon everything civil and material and societal. the world right now is such bullshit. god i love it though, in its true form, past all that. the uncarved block. the p'u. i need to reread the tao of pooh. it's been about 8 years since i read it.
ok i'm going to stop writing now before this turns into a fucking novel. it's too bad you probably live thousands of miles away from me or we could talk over hot mugs of something or other. i have a feeling it would be an "oh shit the sun's coming out already?" type ordeal.

[Edited on Nov 20, 2003 12:55AM]
amok01:
do you like aesop rock? he is fucking brilliant as well. i can't remember if you've mentioned him before when talking about good hip hop, but he is also one of the greats.
do me a favor and go download "put your quarter up" by molemen. right now. well, after you read this anyway. smile
that mountain sounds rad. i can just imagine reclining on a bed of blossoms and being lulled to sleep by the breeze and the warmth of the sun. a well placed nap is not a thing to be underestimated. i made a list of the things i'm grateful for yesterday because i was feeling blessed, and catnaps were pretty high up there.
life is funny. when you stop trying to make it do what you want it to do and just sit back and let it do its thing it usually works out. i'm about to move into a place in january where i don't have to pay rent and i just got hired at a place i'd been wanting to work too. more spookiness. i really think it's because i let go of my imagined control over things, asked for what i needed, accepted that maybe what i want isn't meant to be, and that no matter what the outcome there is good in everything and i will do the best with what i am given, because even hard times deliver good things in the form of wisdom and strength.
enough with the self help book type monologue, though. it's bedtime.
i hope you have a good day too. wink
0
It's a beautiful night out right now. The moon is bright, and very very white, which causes the clouds to adopt a pinkish-hue.
--
My dryer doesn't work right. It heats things up, but it doesn't get them dry. Some mildew appeared on my jeans, and it yet again caused me to question our existence. In this primordial soup, which is composed of heated water,...
Read More
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
amok01:
childhood
*sigh*
i remember it too, like light filling my body.
i wish i could have bottled some of that sunshine, put it in a jar that i could take out of a safe place and open up on days when the world is cold and unloving, feel its warmth surround me like butterflies and stars that make tickly fuzzy sounds in your ear. but still, even if i had it in a container i could really never be IN it again.

but vent_outlet was right when he said you'll probably be thinking the same thing about today 10 years from now.
such is the beauty of longing i guess. you always want what's out of reach.

hey novy, we've got almost the same taste in women. i couldn't decide between synnove and elara but i had to go with the space pirate.
amok01:
so yeah, i've been reading your journal and we have more in common than you know. it is sort of spooky. it goes way past our taste in women.
you're such a good writer. i just want to crawl into your journal entries. i'm not sure what i would do there, but i would like to be a part of them nonetheless.
take this as the highest compliment possible because i've never felt that way about the writing of someone solid, someone who can talk back.
reading your writing, it's like i'm right there going "ha, yeah no shit huh?" because it's so parallel to things i think about and wonder, and i wondered often if i was the only one who thought those things. but i guess i'm not.
and you like video games and the tao of pooh and martial arts and underground hip hop.
thank you for existing. i bet you're cute, too. wink
0
I walked down the street in the cool fall breeze staring at the cracks and imperfections in the concrete, my hair blowing in front of my eyes, maple leaves blowing underfoot. I walked past the drunk bum, the girl in the cheetah jacket, the crying kid, the tabok (newstand), the group of people too cool for me, dusters and sunglasses, the business woman in her...
Read More
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
grooverider:
dude- you don't know where the quote on my journal is from??!

if anyone should know it it's you!

common Novy- don't let me down!


(what does your name mean anyway?)
grooverider:
hagakura?

much deeper source actually...

it's 'blind fury'- starring rutger hower or whatever you spell hid last name.

good effort though.

i'm on limited web time- i have agent smith on my back- gotta run!
0
You do realize, love, that one day, no one is going to know we existed. As a matter of fact, beautiful, no one's going to remember the human race ever existed. Not that anyone would remember it anyways, because no one would exist, and that my love would result to nothing.
So what you need to do is not let your mind wander. Exist in...
Read More
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
grooverider:
you got fired? this sucks... unless you hated that job.
did you?



grooverider:
where is you?!?
0
Your hair is so beautiful, straight, long, perfect and brown; and I'm forced to stare at it, to watch the light refract through the stacks of dead cells, and it's torture to me. I wish I could reach out and touch it, have it ballroom dance with my fingers, and still, you sit there so often, expressionless, totally devoid of any interest. It's wrong, completely....
Read More
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
grooverider:
still- being bruce lee n' all, you should be up on your feet in no time!
grooverider:
white frog buttons?
0
So it begins. Having experienced a 3 month withdrawal of having no broadband internet, here I am again. I realize what a mess of a life this past one year has been now. I'm also deeply regretful to those others who realize this.
Regardless, something happened at work which was a cruel mockery of my inability to have any type of fortitude in situations that...
Read More
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
digupherbones:
going to go see kill bill tomarrow, before work biggrin
digupherbones:
the movie was sooooooo well done. i couldn't imagine anything less from QT!
0
Please keep in mind if you see a movie, which is more than likely asian in origin and with poorly translated subtitles, that speaks of people who have great gung fu (gung fu is asian, kung fu is american), who use swords, it is entirely inaccurate and should be taken as choreography and art. Although I do find such works incredibly entertaining.
--
I often...
Read More
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
digupherbones:
Novy, i now love you..... not in some sort of homosexual lusting way... but i do love you. reading your journal reminded me that there are smart people out there, and i thank you.
synnove:
i think someone needs to update their journal biggrin
0
I watched part of Office Space again today, one of my favorite movies, for like the tenth time. Strange how a number of electrons sprayed across a glass screen and directed by cathodes can provide so much entertainment, and at the same time create such emotion. I found myself growing saddened at how perfect the world could seem in movies and video games. I remember...
Read More
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
rickroyal:
I'm a fan of anyone who pays me for something I wrote.
thirty:
Have you seen FFX:2? Yuna's in some hoochie-momma shorts!
0
Sometimes I like to take the long way home, and sometimes as I drive home past the humid greens that seem to fuse themselves with the buzzing of cicadas and the crumbling of white trash houses under the stress of time, I feel strangely at peace. Especially if I have the air conditioner on. I love the feeling of cold wind blowing all over me,...
Read More
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
grooverider:
hey- what's up.
sabine:
sweet. it definitely interests me. i was just thinking about reading more about it. my psych professor even mentioned taoism in class today
0
So I'm moving tomorrow, and I've cancelled the rebilling on my SG account for the time I won't have much internet access. I'll be back soon, I'm gonna miss you guys and gals.
So I'll leave you with this
--
It was like an amphetamine high, sitting on my porch, I stared at the greens, so vivid and alive, the wind was beautiful. My mind...
Read More
VIEW 15 of 15 COMMENTS
synnove:
i was wondering why i hadnt seen your comments in a while, i've been busy too but decided to investigate. hurry back! kiss
kikka:
yeah, this are the same trees i suppose biggrin. but i like them anyway, they're really easy to get used too.

how's the moving process, you nihilist? drop me a not or an email, k? i'm curious.
kiss