november13

Hello again! So here I am on my up and down rollercoaster. LOL It feels so weird. As if I'm in the middle of a mid-life crisis. I've finally decided that putting myself out there for someone is just not something I am ready to do again. At least not for sometime. I know there are good people out there, it's just definately something hard to find. Especially in shitty lil Colorado Springs!
That guy I really liked turned out to be so weird. He knew exactly what to say, I mean exactly. I am not a girl to buy anyones bullshit but this joker was good! He blew me off for a day, then text me like everything was ok the next and at that point I was willing to give him a chance and be a friend. Then he avoided talking to me all day yesterday. Really?! LOL I don't need this bullshit. I have way too much other cool shit going on with my life to try and figure out why someone can be such a fuckface.
I've gotten 3 more sets done for SG. I haven't submitted them yet because I am still trying to look through them. I have finally been taking some time off for myself. I have needed it so badly. For a while there everyday I was off I had a photoshoot. So I really had no time off. I'm starting to look at life more positively and becoming more comfortable with myself. My ex husband has been great lately and we are raising our son together productively. It's been nice. It makes me remember why I fell in love with him in the first place. But I know him and I will never work. He doesn't support my modeling dreams and that just cant be acceptable for me. This is what I want at my life at this point and I am not being what everyone else wants. I am being me from now on. My new piercings Oh yeah I am going to get my SG logo done today too. I am so excited. I am getting the new logo cause she is way cuter!