novajade

Lifetime of Doubt

Impatiently waiting for you to confess
broken and swollen with pains in my chest
Don't know if i know how to let this bleed out
I wanted a friend not a lifetime of doubt
And you knew what you did but you lie even still
you cut and you bleed and you swallow your pills
I think I could make you say all that I want
But I know it means nothing

You made me into a liar let everyone think
that I hurt you and broke you but what about me?
I had no fault here and you had it all
and yet they criticize me. you not at all!
And I can't even tell you about what I feel
cause i'll break down and forgive you
You know that I will

So instead I am here letting thoughts pour right out
and you are at home struggling hard with yourself
Let this be a lesson just take it all in
cause no one suspected a thing like this from him
Now the truth telling girl must be the one lying
Cause he is the only one who inside is dying?
When i hear that name I choke
and I cry inside cause they don't really know
I heard you called her the other day?
What you thought everything was forgiven?
It would just go away?
This hole you dug was your grave though you didn't realize
it's the last place you'll ever look into my eyes.