northstar

lately my moods have been dictated by the weather. nothing but grey skies this morning and a fuckload more snow. i was full of all sorts of angry this morning. the fuckin' snow kept falling and suffocated me even more. i need out. i need this to be gone. take with it this feeling i have in my stomach.

i need change. i need renewal and rebirth. i need things to grow. i need to nurture.

my day was boring. too much time to think. moving from the tv to the computer and back again. i wrote an email that was the beginning of the end of a friendship with someone who i care deeply for.

so i was a bit sad this evening. but the roommates take care of me. ready with a joint and a glass of wine, family guy and south park. i unloaded a bit of stress and i feel that much better now.

when springtime actually shows up... i'll be new and improved, lighter and faster.

tomorrow will be better. i promise.

hmmm.....i'm having a delicious little fantasy right now and i hope that feeling sticks around for a while.

im feeling scandelous. what did you last fantasize about?
what made you feel good today?

copeland - beneath the medicine tree makes me feel good. its pure, honest, simple and beautiful.

Maybe I fell too fast.
Maybe I pushed you away.
Now you're gone and I'm afraid you're never coming back this way again.
I won't mind if you monopolize all of my time.
I won't say a thing at all.
I won't say a word.