noreins

So this new year has sucked...and if this is any indication on how the rest of the year is going to be then I'm ready for it to be over.

Let's see within the past 30 days....
I got caught in a lie
I hurt the person I love
I lost the person I love
I'm heartbroken
I lost financial aid
I lost my job...to find out that I got it back (one of the few things going write)
I got threatened to be taken to court so my son's father can take custody of him
I was told I am a pathetic useless mother
I've gotten extremely sick

So far not a good year for me. And the worse part is I did most of it to myself from my stupid mistakes.

Today I got into a screaming well what would be a screaming argument if I had a voice...but anyway I got into an argument with Danny, my son's father. All because I asked him to take Shawn because I feel disgusting and run down and I'm just trying to get better. I hung up on him probably 4 or 5 different times, I kept trying to tell him I'm not in the mood to argue and that to forget about getting Shawn that I will just watch him myself. He showed up to my house only for me to tell him to go home, he tried to come into my house and I literally had to push him out of my doorway. He then decided to text me and let me know that I'm a pathetic excuse for a mother and that I'm completely useless and if it wasn't for him I would ruin Shawn's life. And that all I do is ruin things so he is going to take me to court to try and get full custody of Shawn so I can be myself. I can't believe I threw an amazing relationship away for nothing. I am the stupidest person in the world. Dan, I'm sorry. I suck.