So I was reading some previous blogs and I realize I've been complaining a lot and I've been very down. So today I sat down and made a few lists. Lists of things I want to do, goals, what I want to change in my life...just pretty much everything. So it starts with today. It starts with a step in the right direction. A positive attitude.
I've cleaned my room and organized it. I went through my clothes and got rid of the ones I no longer wear. I threw away things that no longer had any value to me. I dusted and vacuumed and on top of everything else...you can see my floor. My floor use to be one big shelf holding all my items, it drove me insane but I was to lazy to actually care. Then a few days ago I made a decision to get off my ass and clean, I feel better now.
I've been down on myself because I've gained weight and I don't fit into my clothes like I use to. But I've been doing nothing but complaining about it, I've been sitting around and stuffing my face. I'm not active like I use to be, I don't dance I don't run I don't do shit. But like I said today is just the beginning. I did a work out today, I'm pretty proud. Now I just have to stick with it.
Also, starting tomorrow (why tomorrow? because I already failed today lol) but no more pop. I don't need it and plus I get instant pains from it in my kidneys.
I don't want to hurt people. I don't want to degrade people. So I won't anymore. Especially the ones I care about most. I'm trying to mend whatever is left between me and Dan. I want to be with him, but I know it's a lot easier said than done...but if I can at least salvage a friendship out of it, I will be happy. Although, we had class together today, it was extremely awkward but we have been texting today, I'm taking that as a good sign. He is at least willing to talk to me...we will see where we end up from here.
I'll keep you updated on my progress
Today was my first day of semester classes
I've cleaned my room and organized it. I went through my clothes and got rid of the ones I no longer wear. I threw away things that no longer had any value to me. I dusted and vacuumed and on top of everything else...you can see my floor. My floor use to be one big shelf holding all my items, it drove me insane but I was to lazy to actually care. Then a few days ago I made a decision to get off my ass and clean, I feel better now.
I've been down on myself because I've gained weight and I don't fit into my clothes like I use to. But I've been doing nothing but complaining about it, I've been sitting around and stuffing my face. I'm not active like I use to be, I don't dance I don't run I don't do shit. But like I said today is just the beginning. I did a work out today, I'm pretty proud. Now I just have to stick with it.
Also, starting tomorrow (why tomorrow? because I already failed today lol) but no more pop. I don't need it and plus I get instant pains from it in my kidneys.
I don't want to hurt people. I don't want to degrade people. So I won't anymore. Especially the ones I care about most. I'm trying to mend whatever is left between me and Dan. I want to be with him, but I know it's a lot easier said than done...but if I can at least salvage a friendship out of it, I will be happy. Although, we had class together today, it was extremely awkward but we have been texting today, I'm taking that as a good sign. He is at least willing to talk to me...we will see where we end up from here.
I'll keep you updated on my progress
Today was my first day of semester classes
mctatters:
I'm thinking I should take a page out of your book. You look incredibly happy in your new pictures. Hope everything works out well for you.
velour_fog:
Atta girl. good luck with school! Getting out of the house and having something like studying to focus on will definately help. Hope you can stay with it!