noreins

UGH! So up until the last week I was ahead in all of my classes and within a weeks time I let that slip.
Honestly I hate school, I hate most of my classes except my English Class. I hate my history class but love the teacher. I just feel like I'm not dedicated to school but I don't feel ready for it, I don't feel like its what I want to do right now with my life. I would love to take a year off and travel around and try new things and discover the world. I'm 20 years old and I already feel restricted. I have a two year old son, who don't get me wrong I love more than anything and would do absolutely anything for him, but I can't help but feel anchored down. I can't afford to take anytime off of school because I need to get a career started so I can move out of my parents house and start a life on my own for me and Shawn. I can't afford to travel because the money I do have goes towards Shawn or bills. I just need to get on the ball and suck it up. I just get so discouraged because I don't even think I'm doing exactly what I want to do, but it's a quick career. But I guess it's time to go study for history so I don't bomb the test. And write my English paper that is 4 days late. Awesome.