Well here is my second time at writing this blog considering my computer just freaked out on me and deleted the last one.
About 45 minutes ago I receive a text from a the guy I like; Dan. The text reads, "Why are girls so gay?" Come to find out that he is asking me this due to my previous blog. Dan feels like I wasn't being completely honest with him, the thing is I have been. I honestly don't understand why he doesn't think I have been and why he is pissed at me about. Nothing happened. So now I'm here awake and pissed, because Dan obviously doesn't trust me like I thought AND he just quit texting me.
So Dan you want honesty? You want me to be completely truthful? How's this?
I want you. I want to be with you. You are the only person I want. I care about you a lot and I like you more than you probably realize. You are the only guy I have truly cared about since Danny. You are the only guy since that I have not tried to push away. Well completely push away. I find you incredibly attractive, and I believe that your personality is amazing and makes me that much more attracted to you. I sometimes get jealous when you go out to the bars because I know that other girls are going to be there. I'm nervous that you are going to find another girl who is prettier than me, or catches your attention more, or anything and that you are just going to quit talking to me. I understand the whole not wanting a relationship thing and I'm ok with that for the most part but I can't help but wanting a official relationship with you sometimes. I connect with you on a level that I don't think I have ever connected with anyone else before. I respect you probably more than my best friend. I value your opinions and comments on things. I love how we can be goofy and immature with each other and then sit and talk for hours about anything. I'm so happy that you decided to go back to school, but I can't help but wish you weren't because I don't want you to leave. I don't want what we have to be over. And despite how I feel about you and what I want with you, if it would make you happy I would give it all up.
This is probably the only thing I have not been completely honest about...but everything else I have been honest since the beginning. What else do you want from me Dan?
About 45 minutes ago I receive a text from a the guy I like; Dan. The text reads, "Why are girls so gay?" Come to find out that he is asking me this due to my previous blog. Dan feels like I wasn't being completely honest with him, the thing is I have been. I honestly don't understand why he doesn't think I have been and why he is pissed at me about. Nothing happened. So now I'm here awake and pissed, because Dan obviously doesn't trust me like I thought AND he just quit texting me.
So Dan you want honesty? You want me to be completely truthful? How's this?
I want you. I want to be with you. You are the only person I want. I care about you a lot and I like you more than you probably realize. You are the only guy I have truly cared about since Danny. You are the only guy since that I have not tried to push away. Well completely push away. I find you incredibly attractive, and I believe that your personality is amazing and makes me that much more attracted to you. I sometimes get jealous when you go out to the bars because I know that other girls are going to be there. I'm nervous that you are going to find another girl who is prettier than me, or catches your attention more, or anything and that you are just going to quit talking to me. I understand the whole not wanting a relationship thing and I'm ok with that for the most part but I can't help but wanting a official relationship with you sometimes. I connect with you on a level that I don't think I have ever connected with anyone else before. I respect you probably more than my best friend. I value your opinions and comments on things. I love how we can be goofy and immature with each other and then sit and talk for hours about anything. I'm so happy that you decided to go back to school, but I can't help but wish you weren't because I don't want you to leave. I don't want what we have to be over. And despite how I feel about you and what I want with you, if it would make you happy I would give it all up.
This is probably the only thing I have not been completely honest about...but everything else I have been honest since the beginning. What else do you want from me Dan?
sinn4u:
best wishes with this hope it works out for you. but never forget to care for yourself.