RIP Grandma, these past three years have been rough without, but just know I think about you everyday.
Today my Grandma passed away three years ago. It was a hard time, luckily I was dating someone I loved very much and he helped me through the day, and the following week, and today he helped me. I felt terrible today, I couldn't remember the date she passed, I knew it was anywhere between the 20th and the 22nd. So, I looked it up and found out it was today. I had a wave of emotion. My Grandma was my strength, she taught me to hold my head high, even when everyone else is looking down on you. In December, I got the tattoo I have on the back of my neck, it's the word Strength with a heart connected to it, it's a reminder of my Grandma's strength, a piece of her I can always carry with me. My Grandma was a mother of 8, a Grandma to over 40 grandchildren and over 20 great-grandchildren, she was a survivor of Ovarian Cancer, she was dedicated to her family and never took anything for granted. I couldn't help but feel disappointed in myself today, I took a look at the pass three years and I have made some terrible choices, choices that would really make my grandma disappointed in me. The guy I was dating when she passed away had met her multiple times, and he talked to me to make sure I was okay, he reassured me that my Grandma would forgive me for anything I'm ashamed of, he kept me together and he talked to me until I told him that I was fine. He is a sweet guy, I still love him, but we are just great friends now, and I'm happy, really happy for that. But, I guess I just want to follow in my Grandma's footsteps better, and be half the woman she was. So strong and proud. I need to really get myself in check and change a lot of things.
To Grandma: I'm sorry, I miss you, I love you.
Today my Grandma passed away three years ago. It was a hard time, luckily I was dating someone I loved very much and he helped me through the day, and the following week, and today he helped me. I felt terrible today, I couldn't remember the date she passed, I knew it was anywhere between the 20th and the 22nd. So, I looked it up and found out it was today. I had a wave of emotion. My Grandma was my strength, she taught me to hold my head high, even when everyone else is looking down on you. In December, I got the tattoo I have on the back of my neck, it's the word Strength with a heart connected to it, it's a reminder of my Grandma's strength, a piece of her I can always carry with me. My Grandma was a mother of 8, a Grandma to over 40 grandchildren and over 20 great-grandchildren, she was a survivor of Ovarian Cancer, she was dedicated to her family and never took anything for granted. I couldn't help but feel disappointed in myself today, I took a look at the pass three years and I have made some terrible choices, choices that would really make my grandma disappointed in me. The guy I was dating when she passed away had met her multiple times, and he talked to me to make sure I was okay, he reassured me that my Grandma would forgive me for anything I'm ashamed of, he kept me together and he talked to me until I told him that I was fine. He is a sweet guy, I still love him, but we are just great friends now, and I'm happy, really happy for that. But, I guess I just want to follow in my Grandma's footsteps better, and be half the woman she was. So strong and proud. I need to really get myself in check and change a lot of things.
To Grandma: I'm sorry, I miss you, I love you.
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sameenvy:
And Ashley, you will make your Grandma proud and honestly, anything that you think that you think that she would be ashamed or upset with you about, she has more than likely forgiven you for it already. She loves you honey. We all do.
sameenvy:
I just talked to him about it. He made himself get sick because he wanted to sober up. Still stupid but I guess not as bad.