Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of...
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Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of...
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Horsemen was actually a really good movie. I was surprised but I definitely enjoyed it.
Sex Drive is hilarious. It was a great movie, and the company that I watched it with was a little under the influence which made it even funnier.
I've had a song stuck in my head for the past few days: Still Feels Good by Rascal Flatts
"Your fingers hooked...
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Sex Drive is hilarious. It was a great movie, and the company that I watched it with was a little under the influence which made it even funnier.
I've had a song stuck in my head for the past few days: Still Feels Good by Rascal Flatts
"Your fingers hooked...
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Oh man I feel like dying. Detassling is kicking my butt. My arms, sides, back and shoulders are killing. My face is burnt really bad and I think I got sun poisoning. I feel like shit, so I took the day off today. But, back in full swing tomorrow. I had the night off last night, it was great because I finally went to bed...
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Should of had a night off. My son; Shawn was suppose to go to his father's; Danny's. I'm glad Danny called me today to let me know, that he had a birthday party to go to and couldn't take him. What he didn't know is I'm friends with the person of who the party is for. He really didn't take Shawn because he would rather...
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agonistes_vental:
Well,I read this blog and I must say that it is quite a sad thing to know that your child's father has yet to grow up.But listening to you speak it's good to know that you're taking the reins and your doing whats right for your child and that is truely a beautiful thing.Your young yes but you've learned so much since the birth of your child and yes it hurts to see your child yearning for his father but in the end the father will be the one to lose everything.I respect you and must I ay that I have faith in you.
sameenvy:
You are absolutely right, honey. You deserve better than that and so does Shawn. Danny really needs to grow up and there is going to come a day, I'm sure, when Danny is devistated because he has Shawn (on that rare occasion that he actually does have him) and Shawn is going to call for "Mommy" and ask "Where is Mommy?" Maybe something like that will make him grow up. The sad thing is, I doubt it will... BUT someday (hopefully soon) maybe Danny will realize that he is a father and he will actually grow up.
I love you honey. I miss you. Terribly.
Keep your head up.
I love you honey. I miss you. Terribly.
Keep your head up.
Watching the original Friday the 13th. Getting ready to watch The Haunting In Connecticut. Perfect night for horror films, it's dark out, it's storming and our lights keep flickering...as long as the power doesn't go out so I can watch the entire movie.
Started a new job yesterday, it's only seasonal. I started yesterday, and don't have to go back until Monday. Let me just...
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Started a new job yesterday, it's only seasonal. I started yesterday, and don't have to go back until Monday. Let me just...
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sameenvy:
Horror films = wayyyyy no good. Especially on a night like this.
A bit too scary for my liking. LOL.
A bit too scary for my liking. LOL.
So I've been downloading some music, because I have absolutely none on my computer.
I hate songs that remind me of him, it makes me want to miss him. It's been years since we have been together, it was great yes, but ended terribly. Why would I want to miss him? After everything he did to me, I should hate him, I should wish him...
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I hate songs that remind me of him, it makes me want to miss him. It's been years since we have been together, it was great yes, but ended terribly. Why would I want to miss him? After everything he did to me, I should hate him, I should wish him...
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sameenvy:
Honey,
There are always going to be things that remind you of Danny and there really is nothing wrong with that. You will always love him because he is the father of your BEAUTIFUL baby boy. You and Danny are connected by something great. And the fact that the two of you are able to be friends still after everything says a lot about you both.
And I just want to say again how sorry I am for having anything to do with the trouble that you went through. I wish that I could take it all back.
I miss you, Ash.
Keep your head up. Remember, you are amazing.
I love you.
There are always going to be things that remind you of Danny and there really is nothing wrong with that. You will always love him because he is the father of your BEAUTIFUL baby boy. You and Danny are connected by something great. And the fact that the two of you are able to be friends still after everything says a lot about you both.
And I just want to say again how sorry I am for having anything to do with the trouble that you went through. I wish that I could take it all back.
I miss you, Ash.
Keep your head up. Remember, you are amazing.
I love you.
RIP Grandma, these past three years have been rough without, but just know I think about you everyday.
Today my Grandma passed away three years ago. It was a hard time, luckily I was dating someone I loved very much and he helped me through the day, and the following week, and today he helped me. I felt terrible today, I couldn't remember the date...
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Today my Grandma passed away three years ago. It was a hard time, luckily I was dating someone I loved very much and he helped me through the day, and the following week, and today he helped me. I felt terrible today, I couldn't remember the date...
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sameenvy:
And Ashley, you will make your Grandma proud and honestly, anything that you think that you think that she would be ashamed or upset with you about, she has more than likely forgiven you for it already. She loves you honey. We all do.
sameenvy:
I just talked to him about it. He made himself get sick because he wanted to sober up. Still stupid but I guess not as bad.
Red Lobster was amazing...I ordered what is called the Ultimate feast which includes lobster tail, shrimp, crab legs, salad, mashed potatoes, and those buttery goodness biscuits, and yes I ate it all. On our way home we decided to stop by a art store, I was in heaven. I got new paint brushes and new paint, so now hopefully I can finish my faceless ballerina....
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hollywood24:
well you can talk to me about anything if you would like ....i am far away right now and i dont reall know anyone that knows you ...
jennna:
Whenever I go into Red Lobster I can't eat those damn biscuits. I use to work for them and thats all we use to munch on and people were so rude about getting them. Now when I see them I just make everyone else eat them lol
Slept all day, and it was amazing. Truly, truly amazing.
I went and saw a friend I haven't seen in awhile and her newborn. Man is that little girl adorable. I miss those days I had with my little man. I wish he would just want to cuddle with me and let me hold him all day long, but now I'm lucky if he wants...
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I went and saw a friend I haven't seen in awhile and her newborn. Man is that little girl adorable. I miss those days I had with my little man. I wish he would just want to cuddle with me and let me hold him all day long, but now I'm lucky if he wants...
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actionbastard:
Red Lobster is frickin yum. I'm jealous. And I'm also jealous you saw Public Enemies, I have yet to see that. Score 2 for you, lol
hollywood24:
i saw public ememies yeasterday also...i thought it was ana mazing movie..
Babysitting...bleh. Today was pretty great day, went shopping, went out to eat. Hung out with my wife, went to see our friends play at the local coffee shop. Talked to my ex's love interest, I've decided I really like her. She plans to come and visit and she wants to hang...why not? lol. Called a quits with a boy I liked. Sad thing is this...
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doontheloon:
ok here is a list of things that are on my mind at this moment.
1) Ashley you are a really great person. Don't ever let anyone tell you different.
2) I just didn't want anything serious. And I just felt that it was going that way.
3 ) Ashley I've never lied to you, led you on in any way, or made empty promises.
4) If anyone is a joke, it's definitely you sam. I'm not the one who fucks people to keep from feeling empty inside.
5) I don't creep your profile because I have friends that truly love me and more self respect and self esteem than you'll ever have. I could really give a shit less about you after i discovered the type of person you are.
6) I'm not perfect i've made MANY mistakes in my day. BUT I don't blame my shortcomings on other people.
7)Ashley, I know ignoring you for a while wasn't the greatest move and I know you're mad at me, but there are just a lot of things in my life that I have to get in order right now. I hope we can still be friends because we really do get along great and I have so much respect for you and the things you've been through. I would really like to talk to you sometime soon so maybe you could understand what is going on with me. We were good at getting along great but i guess we never really sat down and talked about things that we wanted and plans that we had for our lives. And for that i apologize. I just don't want to be your enemy ever.
im sorry this was long and parts of it were shitty. but i couldn't fit it all into a text or a verbal conversation.
1) Ashley you are a really great person. Don't ever let anyone tell you different.
2) I just didn't want anything serious. And I just felt that it was going that way.
3 ) Ashley I've never lied to you, led you on in any way, or made empty promises.
4) If anyone is a joke, it's definitely you sam. I'm not the one who fucks people to keep from feeling empty inside.
5) I don't creep your profile because I have friends that truly love me and more self respect and self esteem than you'll ever have. I could really give a shit less about you after i discovered the type of person you are.
6) I'm not perfect i've made MANY mistakes in my day. BUT I don't blame my shortcomings on other people.
7)Ashley, I know ignoring you for a while wasn't the greatest move and I know you're mad at me, but there are just a lot of things in my life that I have to get in order right now. I hope we can still be friends because we really do get along great and I have so much respect for you and the things you've been through. I would really like to talk to you sometime soon so maybe you could understand what is going on with me. We were good at getting along great but i guess we never really sat down and talked about things that we wanted and plans that we had for our lives. And for that i apologize. I just don't want to be your enemy ever.
im sorry this was long and parts of it were shitty. but i couldn't fit it all into a text or a verbal conversation.
actionbastard:
Yeah, I'm sure whatever it is I will do what I need to do. Thanks for the support, it does ease my mind a bit 
My head hurts, but I'm going out looking for a job. Not much is offered around here but who knows maybe I'll get lucky. Having no money and being unemployed completely sucks. So, it was a weird morning, my ex asked if I could find a girl on facebook. A girl that became his love interest while he was away at boot camp, so I...
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Wow today what a day! My mom got a job today. A few months ago, a company she worked with for 17 years laid her off. And today she got a new job, pays roughly the same which was a shock to her but the benefits are better. It took a huge weight off our family's shoulders. And as a celebration, she is taking us...
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merc17:
Keep your head up, glad things are looking better.