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It started under weird enough cirmcumstances... I'd gone on a blind date with her friend, someone I was mildly interested in and though was entretaining, but mostly very distant and a bit of an actress. Anyways, that situation peetered out, but not after a very uncomfortable situation where she booty called me at 3 AM. Time went on, I didn't feel good about it and decided to lay off of women and dating for a while. Her friend, Rubella, however, captivated me when her and I had met on the aforementioned blind date (she was the tag-along friend used for a safety net in case I turned out to be a psycho killer). We ran into each other at different points in time, on the street and I knew there was something incredibly powerful about this one... I needed to find out what that was. But it was weird because I'd dated/slept with her friend. Nonetheless, she got up the courage to ask me out despite the weird circumstance and I accepted. We made plans to go out and had an incredible first date of listening to each others records, eventually going to drink down some margaritas and then had the most passionate love making I've ever had in my life, especially with someone that I had just gone on MY FIRST DATE WITH. The level of magnitude of respect and love and interest I had in her is unexplainable. Completely stellar. That was 10 months ago. We're still together, and stronger than I ever expected to be with someone, ever. Unfortunately, like with any relationship, we've had our ups and downs and fights and miscommunications, but one thing we've never had is cheating or lying behind each others' backs. Quite by accident she discovered that was a member of this site... Not that I was hiding it, but it's a part of my life that is seperate from her. Until now. She was hurt and thrown for a loop that I was on here, and the amount of hurt it caused makes my heart tear into pieces out of total contempt for myself. I want it to be perfectly clear to everyone here, and to her, that she is my partner, and someone that I have had a connection with far stronger than with anyone else I've ever had in my life. She means more to me than coming to this site, my band or any of the day-to-day problems that weigh me down. I never want her to feel like I am hiding anything from her, or that I am sneaking around behind her or that I am cheating on her. Because I never, ever would. So this is my final entry, and shortly thereafter I will leave this site for good as a member. Because ultimately she is more important than belonging to an online community, and she is far sexier to me than my fantasies because she is living and breathing and experiences emotions and is there to support me and love. And that is something I need to do in return.
Over and out,
paul
It started under weird enough cirmcumstances... I'd gone on a blind date with her friend, someone I was mildly interested in and though was entretaining, but mostly very distant and a bit of an actress. Anyways, that situation peetered out, but not after a very uncomfortable situation where she booty called me at 3 AM. Time went on, I didn't feel good about it and decided to lay off of women and dating for a while. Her friend, Rubella, however, captivated me when her and I had met on the aforementioned blind date (she was the tag-along friend used for a safety net in case I turned out to be a psycho killer). We ran into each other at different points in time, on the street and I knew there was something incredibly powerful about this one... I needed to find out what that was. But it was weird because I'd dated/slept with her friend. Nonetheless, she got up the courage to ask me out despite the weird circumstance and I accepted. We made plans to go out and had an incredible first date of listening to each others records, eventually going to drink down some margaritas and then had the most passionate love making I've ever had in my life, especially with someone that I had just gone on MY FIRST DATE WITH. The level of magnitude of respect and love and interest I had in her is unexplainable. Completely stellar. That was 10 months ago. We're still together, and stronger than I ever expected to be with someone, ever. Unfortunately, like with any relationship, we've had our ups and downs and fights and miscommunications, but one thing we've never had is cheating or lying behind each others' backs. Quite by accident she discovered that was a member of this site... Not that I was hiding it, but it's a part of my life that is seperate from her. Until now. She was hurt and thrown for a loop that I was on here, and the amount of hurt it caused makes my heart tear into pieces out of total contempt for myself. I want it to be perfectly clear to everyone here, and to her, that she is my partner, and someone that I have had a connection with far stronger than with anyone else I've ever had in my life. She means more to me than coming to this site, my band or any of the day-to-day problems that weigh me down. I never want her to feel like I am hiding anything from her, or that I am sneaking around behind her or that I am cheating on her. Because I never, ever would. So this is my final entry, and shortly thereafter I will leave this site for good as a member. Because ultimately she is more important than belonging to an online community, and she is far sexier to me than my fantasies because she is living and breathing and experiences emotions and is there to support me and love. And that is something I need to do in return.
Over and out,
paul
bye bye paul.