nonsense

last night was one of the hardest nights of my life. i quit my band. it wasn't anything sudden. i had been giving it a lot of thought for some time now, especially during the holiday break. but, there was so much personal stuff between some of us that being at rehearsals and shows was like walking on eggshells. part of me is really sad. it had been a big part of my life. i've played with richard, my brother, in bands since we were teenagers. my brother formed mealticket in 1991, and i joined that band 2 weeks after it formed after being invited to join by him. the other guys, i've played with since the mid-90s as either mealticket or pushover. but now, pushover is done. still, another part of me is wondering and even a little excited about what happens next. i'm moving on in my life and i'm happy about all of that. but, i know i'll never stop writing music. who knows, i might still perform at times. i guess i just have to wait and see how i feel.