Never going back to a place that was a significant point in space and time is sort of surreal.
I grew up in Kansas and spent a lot of time in Oklahoma where my grandparents and one set of cousins lived.
I've not been back to Kansas since I was 18 or 19 nor have I seen any of my friends from grade school since then.
My last trip to Oklahoma was for the funeral of my last surviving grandmother and I've not been there nor have I seen any of those cousins since the funeral (15 years).
I think it surreal because when I was a boy it would have never ocurred to me that there might be a moment that was the last time for a place/people.
It's sort of like a mini-death in an odd sort of way. I don't mean to sound dramatic here because I don't feel any drama about it. It just is. I am present in other places for other people now.
A present friend has reminded me of these places and people.
Maybe more on this later...I'm sure I'll be thinking about it.
I grew up in Kansas and spent a lot of time in Oklahoma where my grandparents and one set of cousins lived.
I've not been back to Kansas since I was 18 or 19 nor have I seen any of my friends from grade school since then.
My last trip to Oklahoma was for the funeral of my last surviving grandmother and I've not been there nor have I seen any of those cousins since the funeral (15 years).
I think it surreal because when I was a boy it would have never ocurred to me that there might be a moment that was the last time for a place/people.
It's sort of like a mini-death in an odd sort of way. I don't mean to sound dramatic here because I don't feel any drama about it. It just is. I am present in other places for other people now.
A present friend has reminded me of these places and people.
Maybe more on this later...I'm sure I'll be thinking about it.
annalee:
That reminds me of a Douglas Coupland book I think. Yes I shot it myself, it was an idea for a set but I got bored of setting up the tripod after about 20 shots! I will put the other ones in my next journal maybe. Hope you're well, you sound very reflective in this journal.
korben:
i know exactly how you feel.