*Note: Today's journal will make me sound like a completely self-absorbed and full-of-shit narcissistic arse.*
Well New Year came and went and i must say i acted like an utter cad! I am now officially a complete bastard. Needless to say all this comes from my dealings with girls.
In other news, the big problem i've been having lately is mainly due to having the threat of legal action due to none payment of council tax. Grr, you forget to do it for a couple of months and the authorities really put the hammer down. 500 by the end of Jan or its baliff time.
Anyway, on New Year I ended up going to a very 'youthful' punk/metal night full of many potential SG's, of course (completely aware of my actions, i take full responsibilty for myself at all times) i acted like a complete louche scumbag and got friendly with a good fair number of them, with varying responses. Problems arose when two friends both liked my attention and then my brother got into the mix, so naturally we had a bizarre love quadrangle going on with me (being a prick) just getting off on the attention.
I am in love after all with someone else, still very deeply, problem is i just wanted a good time.
I did run into and ended up chatting with one girl who was the spitting image of SG Nic and i would of got to known her better if i hadn't been dragged away by another pissed off girl. Of course by about 3am my conscience got the better of me, not a bad thing, i really do try to be rational about things (far too often for some people i know) and i just took it easy while the situation played out; girls coming and drunkenly hugging me while another girl i had 'chatted' to looked on with an evil look for me, sigh, "there's a fine line between clever and stupid..."
...and i completely prescribed to the least enviable side. Forgive me world!
Well it didn't end too badly, i did make plenty of new friends, got asked if i was gay all night (as per usual) and met an old girlfriend who in the past refused to go out with me because i was not 'metal' enough, i hadn't seen her for years, she's a cool as ever, still hasn't changed her mind. AND i think i've found an event to SG sticker when i get my 100, then maybe i AM a pimp-daddy, if my efforts result in a few more members and some more British SG's. We will see in due course...
Well my New Year resolution is to stop flirting so much a it seems it always me into lots and lots of trouble. Sorry if today seems like a confessional, because thats how i have always treated this site.
I must ask, do you think the same way? Do you post your most private thoughts because you desire an outlet or can't afford a psychoanalyst? I post because i like to; i want to be reminded of what i have been doing, its not so much a private thing as quite a few of my non-member friends have a link to my page (including my last ex-girlfriend, hi Jufang!
).
So why do you post here???
People find things boring usually because they are boring. Will Self
Now i wanna be a good boy
I don't wanna be bad
Now i wanna run away from home
Now i wanna be on my own
RAMONES
Well New Year came and went and i must say i acted like an utter cad! I am now officially a complete bastard. Needless to say all this comes from my dealings with girls.
In other news, the big problem i've been having lately is mainly due to having the threat of legal action due to none payment of council tax. Grr, you forget to do it for a couple of months and the authorities really put the hammer down. 500 by the end of Jan or its baliff time.
Anyway, on New Year I ended up going to a very 'youthful' punk/metal night full of many potential SG's, of course (completely aware of my actions, i take full responsibilty for myself at all times) i acted like a complete louche scumbag and got friendly with a good fair number of them, with varying responses. Problems arose when two friends both liked my attention and then my brother got into the mix, so naturally we had a bizarre love quadrangle going on with me (being a prick) just getting off on the attention.
I am in love after all with someone else, still very deeply, problem is i just wanted a good time.
I did run into and ended up chatting with one girl who was the spitting image of SG Nic and i would of got to known her better if i hadn't been dragged away by another pissed off girl. Of course by about 3am my conscience got the better of me, not a bad thing, i really do try to be rational about things (far too often for some people i know) and i just took it easy while the situation played out; girls coming and drunkenly hugging me while another girl i had 'chatted' to looked on with an evil look for me, sigh, "there's a fine line between clever and stupid..."
...and i completely prescribed to the least enviable side. Forgive me world!
Well it didn't end too badly, i did make plenty of new friends, got asked if i was gay all night (as per usual) and met an old girlfriend who in the past refused to go out with me because i was not 'metal' enough, i hadn't seen her for years, she's a cool as ever, still hasn't changed her mind. AND i think i've found an event to SG sticker when i get my 100, then maybe i AM a pimp-daddy, if my efforts result in a few more members and some more British SG's. We will see in due course...
Well my New Year resolution is to stop flirting so much a it seems it always me into lots and lots of trouble. Sorry if today seems like a confessional, because thats how i have always treated this site.
I must ask, do you think the same way? Do you post your most private thoughts because you desire an outlet or can't afford a psychoanalyst? I post because i like to; i want to be reminded of what i have been doing, its not so much a private thing as quite a few of my non-member friends have a link to my page (including my last ex-girlfriend, hi Jufang!
).
So why do you post here???
People find things boring usually because they are boring. Will Self
Now i wanna be a good boy
I don't wanna be bad
Now i wanna run away from home
Now i wanna be on my own
RAMONES
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I think i'm too aware that people read these journals, and so I'm unlikely to write anything too personal, especially negative things. I have a live journal that i've just made friends only and I'm more likely to go into depth about things on there. I like that I can write things somewhere, and using a pen&pad never worked, I never tried using a pc document, it may be the exhibitionist in me that took me to lj, but even that has mostly just been a record of events.