nonameninja

so yesterday as far as I was concurned no other people on earth igsisted...I woke up to an empty house..no one to talk to no one to call...sat in side never leaving the house...just lisioned to music and be depressed...I also cleaned my room that howbord and alone I was...although I had motavation if I keep my room clean I can finish moving some of my stuff to my new house and unpacking...so far all I have ere is a bed cloths computer, and like half of my video games...its crazy as soon as jodi goes out of town I have no one to talk to or hang out with or anything...I really like the girl and like being around her but she wants to get back to geather and I don't really want that....tell ya what I'd give anything for...and I mean anything sarah. a girl I dated through out highschool the most rweal and signifacent person in my life..I love her so much which for me is crazy...I don't/can't love for a few reasons...mostly the girl I lost my verginity to...she was mean crasy and abusive in any and all was.....but the only one I've managed to fall in love with is sarah and I would give anything do anything to just see her face once more...how ever I can't seem to find her...after her mom died she moved in with her new boyfriend wes who is a peice of shit and dosen't desurve her...I finaly after 4 months of pure contemplation desiced I would drive the 50 miles to find her neadless to day I did...I woun't up drifting my car into a ditch because I was pist..cars fine but not is broken because of something else so now I'm on foot...2 cars neather run!!! life is depressing and I want sarah...there I said it...ok enough journal
Edit: music/ where is my mind? the pixies