nonameninja

ok so my intention was to get totaly shit faced last night...I gave up one beer into it...I am currently having a panic attack and typing is very hard....when I get them I get them bad I feel like I'm dieing....I'm in bad shape and I know that...I'm fucked up bad right now....I spent the day hanging out with a new friend...shes really cool and nice but I'm very quite so I just kinda fallowed her around...for some reason its the only point in this whole deal thats taken my mind away.....I don't have any interests in dating this chic or anything...shes a big druggy as far ask I'm consurned....I don't let that affect my judgment but I know I can't be around her for more then a few hours....if it was just pot that would be no big but when it starts going white...or in the vain I'm the fuck out....it was nice to feel like someone wanted to be there for me...even if she was just pertending...now I'm off to do whatever it takes to get out of this attack

***EDIT***

well my attack has ended...had to try to hide it from my brother just because it would be weird....though it did help to have someone in the house or atleast someone to talk to even if its about nothing....I'm so confused by a person right now....I'm told "I still care about you, I still want to be your friend, I don't want you to just walk away,ect" but guess what....I'm the one getting silent treatment and the mean bullshit said about me and for that...you get your wish....see ya and nice knowing you....

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