nolan_void

Last night I started feeling kind of weird, as if I were about to be on the verge of falling into depression, and somehow I took the energy and emotion from it and redirected it. I found inspiration in the desires and longings that were stirring, an opportunity to tell a story about those kinds of dreams and passions that seem so far out of...
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Saw my shrink the other day. Apparently everything is normal...FOR NOW.

I wrote a paper last night and found out that it isn't due until April 5. On the bright side, that means I'm going to be fucking off on April 4.

It's so unusual to not have chaos and turmoil. It's sort of uncomfortable. Fortunately, I doubt I'll have time to get used to...
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In highschool I had this friend, one of the nicest guys I have ever met in my life. Always kinda quiet, but uber-generous, and always a great guy to have in your life to hang around with. A couple of months ago I found out that his sister is a pornstar, apparently a pretty well known one. She's been doing it since she was 19,...
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Been trying to read Great Expectations, but homework always makes me sleepy and naked women are better than coffee for keeping me wide awake.

Since some time yesterday I have been thinking about the duality of gender and how strange it is that we are incomplete in this world without another person. Romantic or sexual involvement with another human being is not something we...
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I was thinking in the shower today. It always seems to be a good place to think, as you wash yourself of the day that came before. Trust is unusual. People always talk about earning or gaining trust, but is trust seems to be a matter of predictability and shaping people's perception of how one is going to act in any given circumstance. Not all...
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The updates are coming kinda quick, but it isn't often that I have a whole lot to say. The ex-girlfriends are coming out of the woodwork to find me. The planets must be aligned in a weird way. I don't understand why they do this every now and then. Maybe they can't leave well enough alone, or perhaps I'm just that damn irresistable. I guess...
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Only in the darkness are our inner lights truly tested. I'm here again, and I can feel the weight of everything coming back in like a tide. I can feel all the old desperate feelings latching on and trying to suck me down like an overwhelming undertow. Now I pray to the light above the clouds, the light that I know exists beyond the endless...
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Just got back from vacation in Florida yesterday. I was volunteering to help victims of the three or four hurricanes that swept through last year. I had a lot of fun. I was so glad to just be away from school for a while and to be able to relax in the sun. There was some personality clash along the way, mainly with the two...
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So yesterday this guy just came up and talked to me out of nowhere at breakfast. It was one of those things where you think "Oh, people normally don't do that sort of thing, walking around scared of social contact with their own race" and so I thought it was pretty cool. I think that was the whole point. So later on in the day...
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I find it pleasantly odd that when nothing is going wrong in life there is very little to write about. Conflict and drama interest people, and those abstracts seem to have a need to be expressed. Sometimes it makes me wonder why I ever considered being a writer. Other times though, I think about what a craft it is to write a good story. To...
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