nolan_void

So yesterday this guy just came up and talked to me out of nowhere at breakfast. It was one of those things where you think "Oh, people normally don't do that sort of thing, walking around scared of social contact with their own race" and so I thought it was pretty cool. I think that was the whole point. So later on in the day someone mentions him to me, and something about the way he was acting. Everybody seemed to think he was on drugs I guess. Then later on another of my really good friends mentioned him to me, and it turns out he was just having one of those life-changing breakthroughs where you get a taste of enlightenment and come to see the world in a completely different way. Joe and I talked to him for a good long while last night trying to help him get a handle on it. I've been there before, and I'd almost forgotten what it feels like, but when you are around someone who is in that state of being you feed off each other's energies and it is really helpful. It's easy to get out of the practice of feeling and being with all the goddamn thinking that tries to run your life.

Today it's warmer than it was yesterday, which automatically makes it a better day for me. One of my crazy ex-girlfriends who lives in Idaho called me this morning. She gets the impulse to do that every now and then. She's in a relationship with a guy that I don't think she wants to be with, and I think she still sees me as some sort of escape, like a daydream. Her problem runs deeper than just needing something different, and I think she knows that. Getting what you want is not the cure for wanting.