Today I kissed a leper on the mouth and caught enlightenment. Today I was born into villainy, and realized the evil that paragons of virtue present. Today I dropped the baggage that I was carrying around, the baggage that I thought was going to make me immortal. The quest for immortality, which just about everyone pursues whether they know it or not, is a memory in a vault full of other moth-eaten memories now. Today I took pleasure in every pain I felt. Every time my gag reflex kicked in with every bite of cafeteria food that I took, I reveled in my limited existence. Every time my muscles twinged with pain from a body that is never going to heal, I delighted in my downfall, devoured the sensation of the fall of the god that I had always tried to fool myself into believing I should be. Have I lost my mind? Maybe. If so, then all the better. Just one more discarded trapping of a costume that I would never fit into. Today I saw everything that was beautiful in the world through the eyes of a man who is in the last fleeting moments of an even bigger moment known as life. I'm not dead. I probably won't be soon. But I will die someday, just like my parents, just like all the animals, just like the earth, just like the sun. Everything is equal with death. And so the anomaly that is life is infinitely intensified, a beautiful contrast all made possible by everyone's greatest fear. Perfection is imperfect. Long live the catalyst of villainy.
More Blogs
-
2
Monday Aug 29, 2005
Desperation for some sort of communication. I feel so far away from … -
0
Sunday Aug 28, 2005
I'm feeling a little better now that I've had some time to settle in.… -
2
Thursday Aug 25, 2005
So I'm back at school from the long summer break. Normally I come ba… -
3
Monday Apr 25, 2005
Well, after the 30th I won't be around for a while. I cancelled my a… -
3
Saturday Apr 16, 2005
Put up some of the pics from the Universal Studios trip I took this p… -
5
Thursday Apr 14, 2005
Broke up with the girl last night. In some ways I feel like I fucked… -
3
Wednesday Apr 13, 2005
The weather is cold and rainy. I'm in denial about it. Yesterday wh… -
2
Thursday Apr 07, 2005
This weekend I'm going off to Universal studios to see Huey Lewis and… -
2
Wednesday Apr 06, 2005
It hasn't been that long and already I find myself facing the shadow … -
3
Saturday Apr 02, 2005
I kissed a girl that I have been trying to kiss for a couple of years…
perfection is overrated anyway