Sunday Apr 23, 2006

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I wonder how they determine how long is long enough in school. For most cases, it seems to be about 3-4 years. Think about it. Elementary school, middle school, high school, college, and grad school all take that amount of time. I wonder if that is how long they figure it takes to become proficient enough to move on, or if it is just the standard amount of time that they can reasonably expect a person to stay in the same place, doing the same thing, with the same people. I'm so fucking sick of having all this school work looming over me.

I'm worried that I've become involuntarily become a monk. I never intended to. I know I don't live in a monastery surrounded by people who dress just like me and have the same haircuts, but I'm having trouble picturing myself in a romantic relationship ever again. It actually sort of hurts me, psycho-somatically, to be around beautiful women. I think this is largely due to some idea that has wormed its way into the core of my being that suggests that they are ever out of my reach. I don't know if I'll ever be able to feel real love that I can give myself over to. It makes me feel sick to think about it. I need to meditate on this.
bella_silencia:
Ugh, college has taken me five years. I've transferred between so many colleges, and so many units were lost. At first I didn't mind, but now I'm feeling so burned out.

I did feel that Silent Hill disclosed a lot of information, but I didn't mind that so much. My question is, what happened with Rose and her daughter that seemed to trap them in an alternate demension? I kept trying to figure out why her husband could sense her when they seemed to occupy a similar space, yet they were having completely different experiences (he's walking down an abandoned hallway, she running from some demon down a dark, decaying hallway). What are your thoughts on it?

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