I haven't really had much of anything to say for a while. Not just here, but in all aspects of life. Being an English major with a concentration in Creative Writing, you can imagine how this can be problematic. I just feel tired. This is ever a problem. For so long I have just felt so tired, and I start to crave annhiliation just to have some rest.
I think the biggest part of this problem is how school functions. There is never any rest from school as long as you are in it. You can't leave school at the office at the end of the work day. You go to class all day, then go home and either work on things for class, or put them off and find yourself never really able to enjoy whatever you are doing instead, because the threat of due dates are looming over you. Even when we have breaks, professors assign major things to be due over those breaks. I like to think that I am much more at ease when I only have to worry about work while I am at work.
I don't know if I have enough creativity left in me. Sometimes I just feel so tired.
I think the biggest part of this problem is how school functions. There is never any rest from school as long as you are in it. You can't leave school at the office at the end of the work day. You go to class all day, then go home and either work on things for class, or put them off and find yourself never really able to enjoy whatever you are doing instead, because the threat of due dates are looming over you. Even when we have breaks, professors assign major things to be due over those breaks. I like to think that I am much more at ease when I only have to worry about work while I am at work.
I don't know if I have enough creativity left in me. Sometimes I just feel so tired.
I sometimes enjoy the company of assholes, and have to endure it unwillingly quite frequently. I can be uncomfortable around people that I wouldn't consider assholes. I guess it says more about me wanting to be an observer, but without being observed and judged. Life seems to be either watch or do.
Or, sleep I suppose.