nolan_void

For the last couple of years I've been having the problem that a lot my friends are all turning into these boring kinds of might-as-well-be-married couples. In the past I have always been one to feel the need to be in a relationship, but I have finally gotten comfortable being single (especially since there are very few girls around that I am able to find any interest in beyond physical attraction). It still really sucks to be the only single person in my entire circle of friends.

There is also the issue that they don't quite seem to be as deviant as me anymore. Maybe there is a maturation, or just a boredom, that sets into people when they get to the point where they feel they have found the person that they're probably going to be sleeping with for the rest of their lives. Geez, let's get out there and tear some shit up for cryin' out loud.

It isn't entirely their fault though. Reclusiveness has made me boring too. I've spent a lot of time withdrawn from the world around me for the last 6 months or so. I don't regret it. It was something that couldn't have been avoided. I needed time to go through some kind of metamorphosis, no matter how unpleasant it might have felt.

I just really want to get out there and start getting my teeth into the world. I need the comfort, security, and communion my friends provide me, but it seems like such a shame that there is all this weird, freaky shit going on out there in the rest of the world and I'm not there to be a part of it first hand. I guess it would be nice if I had someone to share it with, but that's by no means necessary.

There is so much out there we could be learning, so much we could be doing.