noirin

where am i at? people still message me who i never met. why am i still on this site? i like to keep my options open i guess. i can always appreciate goodlookin' womenfolk...

just got back from cardiff working at the new store and i need to write on here because nobody i know reads it anymore, i moved to a darker corner of the net. i feel like someone ripped out my guts with a pitchfork, i really do think i need to see a therapist about that, had an argument with mark about whether or not it was normal when clearly other people deal with it.

i leave my job in 3 weeks. i cant bear it, i feel like im cutting off the only people left but at the same time they drive me crazy. and i know really there are more. but after that...off to peru, then miami, then boston to see my relatives, all with the lovely mark. but just us? i think im scared of what peru might do to my loneliness. im totally happy though, just drained by my long journey home. it's 2am and i'm working tomorrow.

the future is quite scary now im getting old enough to deal with it.