nogodsnomanagers

frighteningly busy doing nothing really
wasting time
but i've been wasted, does this count?
my good fortune amazes me
despite having broken a magnifying mirror

recently:
went to mr.scruff
spoke to jimmy mash up kid for rather a long time, though really it was him talking at me
and i can't decide if i'm projecting feelings too carelessly
whether i'm creating things
and so the eternal battle between what is real and what is in my mind rages on

my lucid dreaming is entertaining again
i forgot what it felt like
romance is quietly seeping back in
but probably not the kind you're thinking of

a little empty because i can't remember the last time i fucked someone i really wanted

the romance i mean.......well, i can't describe it
the way i feel when my little bubble world is hopelessly tangled and i'm enjoying it
and maybe no one ever thinks about me but at least there's still a little part inside that goes "you're so cool"
and my inner soundtrack returns

i struggle, but it makes me feel alive, with this senseless agitation
in a pleasant way

too many things i just need to get out of my system
the person to say it to is still lost
but i'm not going to cry about it

i've not been around lately
internet still fucked up
time too

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p.s i have two new holes in my lip and they make me feel ridiculously sexy