wednesday i went to see lightyear, (chas and neil and i had a tearful goodbye, after derby show they are no more, anyone who knows em or is interested chas is doing a snowboarding season, neil's off to thailand and the others are variously off to university and joinin other bands and stuff...) no comply (have improved so much, and i love them) and fiveknuckle (lovely boys as always)
last night i went to rancid in birmingham. their first UK date, was real good, only a few new songs played (phew) except tim was a wreck. lars held it all down and matt is a fucking god on that bass.....i felt old in the crowd. also embittered by how people who try real hard to make themselves look punk turn around and start fights and generally act like twats...unity anyone?
the support was the fight (ummm ok) and stretch armstrong (disturbingly taking every opportunity to shout about being from "the united states of america" and their between song banter was just a bit wrong considering it was sept 11...didn't like their music much either)
hung out in guam's new house (charmingly crap) and tried to get on with her friends...
today my father died
thanks everyone who's listened to me ramble and stuff, and for your nice posts in my journal, i'm sorry i don't have time to reply to y'all right now, i'm going to work in 10 minutes....maybe good, keep me busy or whatever
my ma seems ok, i think it's just not sunk in yet. a pile of his clean ironed pyjamas on the bed made her choke on a sob earlier, but considering she's being bombarded with every person we've ever known calling and dropping by she's doing really really well
ok, off to work
really hoping i can pull it off, i have only told guam, haz, josh and em and i won't see any of them for a while, so none of the people i'm around know
how do i tell people?
i don't want to because i don't want sympathy and hugs and all that bollocks
but if i don't and they ask after him i might just break
or if no one asks how do i come out with it ever...say next week i'll just have to tell everyone and it'll be "why didn't you tell...." so, who knows, i guess i'm just gunna play it by ear, or whatever that saying is
buh bye now
ngnm
last night i went to rancid in birmingham. their first UK date, was real good, only a few new songs played (phew) except tim was a wreck. lars held it all down and matt is a fucking god on that bass.....i felt old in the crowd. also embittered by how people who try real hard to make themselves look punk turn around and start fights and generally act like twats...unity anyone?
the support was the fight (ummm ok) and stretch armstrong (disturbingly taking every opportunity to shout about being from "the united states of america" and their between song banter was just a bit wrong considering it was sept 11...didn't like their music much either)
hung out in guam's new house (charmingly crap) and tried to get on with her friends...
today my father died
thanks everyone who's listened to me ramble and stuff, and for your nice posts in my journal, i'm sorry i don't have time to reply to y'all right now, i'm going to work in 10 minutes....maybe good, keep me busy or whatever
my ma seems ok, i think it's just not sunk in yet. a pile of his clean ironed pyjamas on the bed made her choke on a sob earlier, but considering she's being bombarded with every person we've ever known calling and dropping by she's doing really really well
ok, off to work
really hoping i can pull it off, i have only told guam, haz, josh and em and i won't see any of them for a while, so none of the people i'm around know
how do i tell people?
i don't want to because i don't want sympathy and hugs and all that bollocks
but if i don't and they ask after him i might just break
or if no one asks how do i come out with it ever...say next week i'll just have to tell everyone and it'll be "why didn't you tell...." so, who knows, i guess i'm just gunna play it by ear, or whatever that saying is
buh bye now
ngnm
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Pull it off, turn it 'round stick it back on the wrong way round then fuckin' walk out.
boom boom.
btw: I am so so so drunk right now