Contemplating life... past, present, and future.
Bitterness...
Counterbalanced with the sweet.
Bittersweet.
It's my favorite word.
Probably why I named my company Bittersweet. Which, in itself, has been. My company that is. Doing something that I love and know that I want to do and work unconditionally on, but can't because of, well, conditions. Time to change that though. I'm dedicating at least 5+ hours a week to the growth of my business and 1/4 of my paychecks will go into my Bittersweet fund. The bitter has been consuming more than the sweet lately, and I've been feeling like a failure. I've been feeling like it all needed to happen RIGHT now, and because it wasn't I failed. I stopped because I didn't want to feel like a failure. Feeling nothing was better than that. But talking with the woman who's position I took over at my new job, I was reminded (by giving her advice on starting her own business) that it takes time and needs to be done in little doses. Start small. I always want everything to be HUGE from the get go. Perfect. Glorious and gluttonous. I'm always the dreamer, the one who is so intent on looking at and reaching so far for the stars that I don't see the one that has dropped right there at my feet.
Now that I'm with someone who is so grounded that we call him the findinator (because he's always finding things on the floor) maybe we can balance each other out. He'll teach me how to be more realistic and I'll teach him how to let go a bit.
What's the best way to learn how to control something?
By losing control of it first.
With that logic I should be master at controlling my life by now.
Kisses
Bitterness...
Counterbalanced with the sweet.
Bittersweet.
It's my favorite word.
Probably why I named my company Bittersweet. Which, in itself, has been. My company that is. Doing something that I love and know that I want to do and work unconditionally on, but can't because of, well, conditions. Time to change that though. I'm dedicating at least 5+ hours a week to the growth of my business and 1/4 of my paychecks will go into my Bittersweet fund. The bitter has been consuming more than the sweet lately, and I've been feeling like a failure. I've been feeling like it all needed to happen RIGHT now, and because it wasn't I failed. I stopped because I didn't want to feel like a failure. Feeling nothing was better than that. But talking with the woman who's position I took over at my new job, I was reminded (by giving her advice on starting her own business) that it takes time and needs to be done in little doses. Start small. I always want everything to be HUGE from the get go. Perfect. Glorious and gluttonous. I'm always the dreamer, the one who is so intent on looking at and reaching so far for the stars that I don't see the one that has dropped right there at my feet.
Now that I'm with someone who is so grounded that we call him the findinator (because he's always finding things on the floor) maybe we can balance each other out. He'll teach me how to be more realistic and I'll teach him how to let go a bit.
What's the best way to learn how to control something?
By losing control of it first.
With that logic I should be master at controlling my life by now.
Kisses
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good luck!
It'll work out.
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