noelani

Soooo.....

I stopped taking my meds. Only by default because I have no money.

Basically this is just a warning that if I do anything psychotic it's not my fault. I'm just a victim to my mental instability.

Actually, I've been ranting the last couple of days in a sort of ongoing conversation with the boy about victims. Everyone wants to be a victim of something, because that means they're owed reperations for it. I say, stop being a fucking victim, get off your ass and make your life what you want it to be because you, and you alone, are responsible for it. We create the situations we find ourselves in.

I know I've felt like a victim before and have used it as an excuse in some situations, and I'm sure that I'll do it again somewhere down the line. We're all hypocrites in one way or another. But I know that eventually I'll start feeling guilty for it and do something after my little tantrum is over.

Yeah, so there

In other news:

I went to Pacific Super yesterday and went on an Asian food grocery spree. I bought pan de sol, laksa mix, a bunch of canned fake meat, fish cake, tofu, rice paper, rice noodles for Pho, dried soy milk powder, ginger crystals and some stuff to make sushi for dinner last night including eel. Sushi was awesome. I love making it myself.

Kisses