noelani

Ack...I woke up sick. Yuck. I also woke up covered in black paint.....I'm pretty sure the two are not related though.

*Sigh...now was that completely necessary? I am not responsible for other peoples feelings, emotions, or actions. Don't blame me for things I have no control over...

Calvin: Sometimes when I'm talking, my words can't keep up with my thoughts. I wonder why we think faster than we speak.
Hobbes: Probably so we can think twice.
~Bill Watterson, Calvin & Hobbes

Kisses

...Mommy, can I go out and kill tonight?
I feel, I feel like taking a life
Please I wanna silver kitchen knife
And feel, feel like taking a life

Daddy, can I go out and hunt tonight?
Like you do on Sunday mornings
Honey, give me a real gentle knife
To feel, feel like taking my life...

Soooo tired last night. Passed out instantly...pretty much....
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That's about how I feel about Karaoke. Good times. I can't believe I got on stage. I, of course, blame it all on SGSF. Always.

Good weekend, for the most part. I could've done without some of the downs, but yeah, I brought them on myself so I can't complain too much. Only a little.

My hair is short now. I fucking love it sooooo...
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Are you kidding me?

Seriously.

whoa, FRIDAY!? When did that happen. Not that I'm complaining mind you, but whoa. I believe this weekend will be spent relaxing. Possible going to brunch, don't know yet.

Anyhow, that is about it. God my journal's have been boring this week. Deal with it.

I Mohawks (I like Trihawk's too)

Kisses

PS thanks for the flowers.

Oh, and...I miss...
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Yesterday, Trixie had a journal listing the things that made her smile and then she asked us to say what made us smile. I, at the time, couldn't think of anything but a sarcastic (well, partly sarcastic....booze, pills and lots of sex do make me smile) comment. I've put more thought into it and remembered that flowers make me smile. Kinda corny, I know, but...
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Industrial music makes me want to fuck. Hard.

There's a difference between making love, having sex, and fucking. You can have all three in the same session though.

But industrial makes me want to fuck. Bent over, hair pulled, head smashed against the wall and hand wrapped around my throat kinda fucking. Is that so wrong?

Anyhow, that's about all I could think of for...
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...If I was beautiful like you, I'd have so many friends
All fighting for my time to be next in line
So if I hurt one I wouldn't have to make amends

But that will never be
That will never never be
Cause I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me...

I'm thinking about have a pre-party before the Burlesque night on Sat. What...
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It's not pathetic to buy yourself flowers and ice cream. What? It's not!?

Shut up....

"It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not."
...Andre Gide


All of my vices have failed me lately. My instruments I use to forget, to cover up, to "deal" with, to enjoy things have been used and exhausted. I'm left with me. Just me, in my simplest form. A scared and scarred little girl....
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Hhhhmmmm.....good weekend, wish I could talk about it......but the words to describe it seem to fail me. Much like a lot of things in my life right now.

To sum things up, I hung out at the beach a bit, inhaled BBQ smoke, drank a little (seriously, it was only a little) watched some fireworks and met some new people. Good times.

Didn't have to...
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I guess it's time for an update.

Friday! yay! Not doing a damn thing tonight or tomorrow. Possible plans for the fourth. eh. Just not excited about the whole "4th of July" thing. I could go into the politics about it, but I won't. The beach sounds like a good idea though, and possibly a BBQ. We'll see.

What are your plans?

I scars. Something...
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