nocturnus

Sometimes it just hits you all at once. All the regrets...all the things left behind. The bridges burned, though perhaps only on the other person's side...when you find yourself sitting on the abutment in stinging tears, begging and praying for one last try.

The one love song I've ever written:

quiet, dreaming

the old men down the street are
cussin' and flippin' cards over
to see what they can take
from each other, and
i can feel the rain a
poundin' on my head
as i walk the dusty streets
of this old town
the people look at me
like nothin'
they don't even know my name
they just sit and stare
i can feel the night grow longer
i can feel the pain grow stronger
as i wonder, baby,
where you're at

sometimes at night i think that i still hear you breathing

go to sleep, Maria
far away from home
go to sleep, Maria
i can be patient
i can be alone

in the darkness of the hallway
my keys jingle like a Sunday rain, and
the twisting of the doorknob feels a little
like the pain when the new day breaks
all these tiny sensations
remind me what it means to be alive, and
if i feel that door re-open
will i find the strength i'd need
to step inside

i just need to find escape from the emptyness i fear

go to sleep, Maria
far away from home
go to sleep, Maria
i can be patient
i can be alone

i'll be waiting there to hold you
in the safety of the night we'll hide, and
as the moon and stars watch over
you might just love me if you...
try

it started snowing on a Thursday
i changed the strings on my guitar
lit another cigarette, put on a heavy coat, and
got back in the car
it's been another draining winter
fills a lonely heart with doubt, and
i'm getting back that feeling
on the outside looking out

Carpe noctem, all