i have just turned 20; so i have been in a highly appreciative mood... so this homework; is kinda gonna be just a rambling of whats going on in my mind lately; i have started to realise i have so much to appreciate this might be a bit of a long one; so i am sorry if i bore you senseless!
1; @blu
first; i just want to say to blu, you are one of the best things that have ever happened to me; i love you; and i never wanna lose you, because my life has been a 100 times better since the day i found you.
well i dont really know where to start with this girl; its probably clear to most of you that we are good friends; but to me she is honestly much more than that; for a period of time she really was my entire reason for carrying on... so; this girl despite being miles away; truly has got me through not only the ending of a exhausting and draining relationship but has been there through every single fibromyalia flare up i've had in the past year or so' she helped me gain the strength that i needed to get through the end of a 3 year relationship which despite its draining existence at the time' meant the world for me; she showed me just how much i'm worth and how i am not how others treat or see me and in fact; beautiful and strong... She has been my rock through all the hard times in the world; she has never judged me and instead always provided a helping hand. @blu is the most beautiful girl i have ever had the pleasure of meeting; she is beautiful both inside and out and i will never ever forget all that she has done... she inspires me to be the best i can be & gives me the inner strength i need just by existing; i doubt she even realises the amount she teaches me about the world... i just fucking love her to the end of world... the most beautiful and strong person in this darn world!
this girl knows my weaknesses better than myself; but she also shows me my strengths' she recognises my disability but emphasizes my possibilites.
2'; Colin
Colin; i don't know where to start im pretty sure id be in a ditch somewhere if not for this man! Providing a helping hand and showcasing the beauty of human existence and it's ability for kindness for no reason other than pure kindness of heart.... If not for him; id of given up on the idea of kindness to others and believed it not existed in this day and age... there is something rare and beautiful in this mans heart' i fear he may be a dying breed of human doing anything for anyone for the mere smile that it would bring upon a persons face.
3; my chronic illness
( i don't really wanna go on about this)
I guess this would seem odd; especially whilst i am in the mists of a flare up; it truly is the only thing i'd honestly wish to change about myself...
yet;
i would not be the girl i am without my fibro; now i don't mean i have become my illness; but obviously having to live with fibromyalia on a daily basis changes a girl. I've become the stronger; despite my physical weaknesses. nothing has taught me more about self love than my fibromyalia; and nothing has shown me the people that matter more... yes it stops me doing things; and sometimes i just want to curl up and die' my fibro has made me fight so hard for the things i love' i have the best grades in all my subjects despite my illness; and it makes me value the nights i do go out and the days i have fun even more.
I honestly don't believe that id be doing as well in my art and with my grades if not for my fibro; i wouldnt of worked as hard.
i am so proud of myself for everything i have achieved; and the person i am.
Before i go; i am putting some prints and some clothing on my ebay account' here to start saving up for my move to manchester and finishing off my hip tattoo so keep your eyes open.
from summer blossoms
xoxo
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