nocapitalismo

Good to see things are goiung well with you and the missus. I wish I could say the same. Im just trying to take my mind off that right now and think about something thats going a little better, but its tough man.

ok, here we go, im gonna try to respond to everything, I apologize in advance if I miss something

*I added the second part of the journal later in the day, probably after you had read the first post. I dont really want to get my sister involved, but im sure she probably knows 90% of whats going on between talking to me and my ladyfriend. And it may be the only way I have to figure out what this girl really thinks of me and how she truly feels about me. Because there are times that she seems to really be into me and other times Im not so sure. My sis says thats just the way this girl is, but it still just seems kinda weird to me.
*Whos says you have to be sober the first time you have relations with your lady? Something might happen after a night out and you'll have nothing to worry about. Or if you feel that you need to be sober for it because she doesnt drink or you are that into her you'd feel it would be disrepectful if you had sex with her while under the influence, just cut the lights out and go for it, that way if it gets a little akward she wont be able to see any strange expresssions or nervousness on your face, and if any "misshaps" occur you can always claim "its too dark in here I cant see whats going on". Sorry thats the best I got for you man, I hope it helps in some small way.
*ANd as for performing like a 12 year old. Here's An age old secret I picked up somewhere along the way: Crank one out earlier in the day before you see her, that way you'll las t forever when it comes time to perform.
*I think somebody stole my scanner I was going to put some pictures up from that hotel party, but I just realized my scanner is missing, and I dont have a digital camera so I guess Im outta luck.


Good Luck this weekend man. 7 days till TO.
Sorry for taking up so much space