nobody89

My stomach has been upset for going on 2 weeks now. Some things are going on that are out of my control. I wish I could do something to help...

I don't really want to say what all is happening but...I don't know what else to do. All i'm doing is making myself sick. I'm so stressed out right now. I can't really eat..having trouble sleeping..and concentrating. I just need to see my girl..It would make me feel so much better.

I miss her sooo damn much..you guys have no idea. It's killing me..but i've gotta be strong about it. And I have to accept the fact that we don't live right next to each other. We live 2 or so hours apart.

I've never felt like i have clicked with someone as much as I have with her. My friends would tell you that I have a hard time with relationships..that i'm afraid of commitment. But i'm sick of dating..sick of going from girl to girl trying to find one. I've found her.. I know it hasn't been very long since we have been seeing each other..but I can actually see myself with her in the future. Actually..today I was thinking about it at work..it made me happy.

I'm really hoping that she isn't going to read this and think i'm some kinda psycho. I can't help the way I feel..my feelings for her and her family are strong. And this distance between us is just making it stronger.

I just want to hold her..tell her that everything is going to be ok. And for her to do the same for me.

I would do anything for her..And I feel like i'm completely unable to help.

I just hope she knows this.......

I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABE